When You Face Tomorrow - Chapter 13
Author: Shriya_4
Pairing: Jaemin/Homin/Yoomin/Minsu (mainly OT5)
Genre: Fantasy, Romance, AU
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Character Death, Language
Disclaimer: I want to own them and marry them..but i can't so well..they belong to themselves. This is my first fic so be nice :P Saranghe <3
Summary: Reuniting them is his one last wish. Can he make them face a tomorrow without him?
Chapter 13:
The minute Changmin got home, he was pulled roughly into Yunho's arms. He struggled a little at first, trying to find a comfortable position in the tight embrace, but decided to give up when he felt Yunho's hot tears soak the crook of his neck. Changmin sighed and wrapped his arms around his hyungs neck, burying his face in his shoulder.
When Yunho pulled away, Min shook his head, stopping the Leader from spewing out the million apologies he'd prepared. "Hyung, stop crying and stop feeling guilty. It's not your fault, you didn't know. If I was in your position and I saw someone shooting off their mouth, I would have probably done the same thing. So, please, let it go."
When Min tried to walk past Yunho, to his bedroom, to change his clothes, he felt himself being pulled back into Yunho's embrace once again. "Minnie-yah, don't take on so much on your own. I know that I can be stupid and forgetful at times, but I'm still older than you. I've seen more of this life than you have and I can take care of myself. Give this stupid hyung of yours some credit and let him take care of you sometimes too, alright?" Changmin nodded and smiled sadly, "Hyung, promise me something?" He waited as he felt Yunho nod, "Promise me that when I die...you'll never let anyone forget about me. I don't want to be forgotten..." Changmin trailed off when he heard Yunho's hoarse reply, "They'll never forget minnie-yah. I'll never let them forget." For a long while after, they cried together; talking about their fears, their fates and their past.
After several hours, Changmin found himself sitting on the sofa, with a sleeping Yunho's head on his lap. He stroked the leaders head for a little while longer, before gently moving out from under him and decided to make himself something hot to drink.
Usually it would have been Junsu, making the drink, but the dolphin was still angry at Changmin for sending the video to all their fans and publically humiliating him and had decided to go stay at Yoochun's for the day. Changmin couldn't stop a smile from making its way across his face, when he thought about how indignant his hyung had looked. He didn't bother to point out to Junsu that he'd been nice enough to send the video that only contained the top half of his body. Plus, If I'd sent the other one, Soo Man would have tanned my ass and put me in charge of damage control.
Changmin started when he heard Yunho’s sleepy voice call out to him from the couch, "Min-ah, go see Jaejoong. He must be awake by now. He didn't sleep the entire night because he was worried about you. He only fell asleep once he knew that you were safe. That's why he wasn't here when you got back; he probably doesn't even know that you're back yet."Changmin sighed tiredly. He'd been hoping to avoid any major confrontation with Jaejoong today. But he supposed luck wasn't on his side.
He covered Yunho with a blanket before taking his jacket and walking over to Jaejoong's apartment. He didn't bother ringing the door bell and let himself in, his eyes adjusting to the darkness in the apartment. He searched for the light switches and turned them on, jumping when he saw Jaejoong sitting on the couch staring right at him.
"Yunho- hyung told me you were worried. I came here to tell you that I was fine and that I was back home." Thinking to end the conversation there, Changmin turned on his heels and tried to walk back out, when he felt Jaejoong come up behind him and wrap his arms around his waist, "Min, do you hate me?" When Changmin didn't say anything in response, Jaejoong continued, “It’s okay if you hate me, especially after what I said. But please don't avoid me anymore. Yell at me, throw things at me, call me names. Just don't ignore me anymore. Please."
Changmin shut his eyes against the pain in his heart, trying to block out Jaejoong's desperate plea, " I don't hate you, hyung. Never have and never will. What you said to me... did hurt me...but it was something that I wanted to hear.” He sighed and continued, “ You, Jaejoong, are the one person in this entire world that I could never hate, so stop thinking that I do."
Jaejoong tried to turn Changmin around to face him, but the younger man stayed stubborn and turned his face away. Jaejoong could feel the sorrow and anger inside him bubble up like a vicious snake, ready to strike and screamed, "IF YOU DON'T HATE ME THEN WHY ARE YOU TREATING ME LIKE FUCKING SHIT AND REFUSING TO EVEN LOOK AT ME?!"
Changmin once again said nothing and tried to walk out of the door, but was pulled back with a vicious amount of force and slammed against the adjoining wall. "LOOK AT ME YOU FUCKING BASTARD! TALK TO ME! YELL AT ME! JUST FUCKING DO SOMETHING SO THAT I DON'T FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN THE ONE KILLING YOU INSIDE! JUST MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I MEAN SOMETHING TO YOU!"
Changmin growled low in his throat and reversed their positions, slamming Jaejoong into the wall instead, " YOU STUPID FOOL!" Jaejoong gasped and watched in horrified fascination as Changmin finally lost control, " HOW CAN YOU THINK YOU DON'T MEAN ANYTHING TO ME?! DON'T YOU KNOW ANYTHING?! HOW CAN YOU NOT KNOW, THAT EVERY TIME I LOOK AT YOU I BECOME MORE AND MORE AWARE OF HOW LITTLE TIME I HAVE? HOW CAN YOU NOT KNOW THAT IT'S YOUR FACE THAT MAKES ME CURSE AT EVERY GOD THAT THERE IS BECAUSE THEY'VE GIVEN ME SUCH A STUPID FUCKING LIFE? WHY CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND THAT YOUR PRESENCE MAKES IT HARDER FOR ME TO ACCEPT THAT I'M DYING BECAUSE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND IT KILLS ME TO KNOW THAT I CAN'T ACT ON IT?!" Changmin's voice cracked as he finished his tirade, unable to control his emotions any longer. He watched Jaejoong reach up and press feather light kisses on his cheeks, his forehead and his mouth. “Minnie, I love you too. So much that I can’t think about a life without you, but try anyway.”
When he knew he couldn't take anymore, Changmin grabbed onto Jaejoong's head and pulled him into a rough kiss, desperately trying to convey his complex feelings.
Jaejoong grabbed onto the front of Min's jacket for support and deepened the kiss further, allowing the younger boy's tongue to slip into his mouth and battle for dominance.
He moaned when he felt Changmin nip at his lower lip and tried to press himself closer against the younger one's body. He felt Changmin's hand move under his shirt and gasped when he felt the cold hand caress his over-heated skin. He moved his own arms and wrapped them tightly around the taller one’s neck, running his fingers through the soft hair. "Nngh," Jaejoong moaned as he felt Changmin shift their position and place his knee in between his legs, pushing him tight against the wall. "Min.." he whispered as he felt Changmin place small kisses along his jaw and nibble at the birthmark under his jaw. "More, nnngh, Min..more, haah, please.." He gasped when he felt Changmin's knee grind against his erection and pulled Min's lips back to his, their teeth gnashing against each other as they desperately tried to have as much of each other as possible. Jaejoong pulled Min's upper lip into his mouth and sucked on it as he felt Min's hand trail up the front of his chest and pull at his nipple ring, "Aaah, Min...mmngh, do..do that again...nnah," Changmin growled as he felt Jaejoong's moans surge straight to his groin, "You're such a fucking tease, Jaejoong-ah." Jaejoong felt adrenalin pump through his veins as he heard Changmin say his name,"Only for you Minnie-yah, always for you."
Jaejoong whined in desperation when he felt Changmin pull away from nibbling at his ear lobe. He looked at the younger one, dazed and let himself be pulled into the bedroom. He gasped when he was pushed roughly onto the bed but the gasp quickly turned into a wanton moan as he felt Changmin crawl on top of him and place wet kisses down the column of his throat. "NNGHHHHHH!" He nearly lurched off of the bed when he felt Changmin bite one of his nipples through his t-shirt and turned into a writhing mess when he felt the boy's fingers pinch the other nipple into a tight bud. He pulled Changmin's hips against his own and ground them firmly against each other, eliciting groans from the boy above him.
Jaejoong reached down between their bodies and cupped Changmin's erection, grinding his palm against the hard body, causing the younger one to press down onto him. Changmin pulled away from Jaejoong and pulled their shirts off one at a time. Jaejoong yelped as he felt Changmin bite down on his collar bone, leaving behind an angry red mark that was sure to turn blue the next day. He moaned as the boy’s mouth trailed lower, leaving behind small hickey’s along the way.
“Mnnnghaahh,” Jaejoong gasped and pulled on Changmin’s hair as he felt the boy’s tongue suddenly flick against his piercing and cried out in desperation as Min pulled his nipples into his warm cavern, one at a time, to suck on them roughly.
He sobbed in pleasure as he felt Min’s hand slip into his jeans and boxers and play with his weeping member. “MIN! STOP TEASING…please…mmmmnnng ….fuck me already.”Changmin pulled himself off of Jaejoong and undid his zipper, pulling his pants down along with his boxers and went to do the same to for Jaejoong.
Once they were totally naked, Changmin put Jaejoong’s knees on top of his shoulders and trailed kisses along the inside of his partner’s creamy thighs, making his way towards Jaejoong’s hard on. When he reached his destination, Min licked the tip of Jaejoong’s member, tasting the salty pre-cum in his mouth and causing Jaejoong to arch off of the bed, his body unconsciously seeking Min’s mouth. Changmin smirked at Jaejoong’s reactions and wrapped his fist around the base of the angry red member, using the pre-cum as lubricant to pump it. He leaned down and took the member into his mouth, hollowing his cheeks and sucking on it for all he was worth.
Jaejoong unable to take it anymore came with an Earth shattering force and groaned as he felt Min swallow every last bit of the sticky substance. He reached down and pulled Min up into a searing kiss, both of them panting and sweating from exertion. “Minnie, your throat..is it okay?” Changmin smiled in consolation before kissing Jaejoong again, their swollen lips meshing into one.
When Changmin felt Jaejoong harden again, he grinned mischievously. “Do you have lube?” Jaejoong shook his head; worried that Changmin would stop their activity because of this. Changmin, noticing Jaejoong’s insecurity smiled lightly and pecked him on his lips, “We’ll just have to improvise then.”
Jaejoong’s eyes widened and darkened with lust as he saw Changmin slip his fingers into his mouth and suck on them. He arched off of the bed again, when he felt Min’s fingers enter him, preparing him. “Min..nnngh do it! DO IT NOW!” Changmin didn’t need to be told twice. He grabbed hold of Jaejoong’s thighs and spread them apart, lifting his hips and thrusting in at one go. He stilled as he heard Jaejoong cry out in pain and pleasure. “Mmmnnn…move! God move please..fuck fuck fuck…move!”
Changmin leaned down and kissed Jaejoong before thrusting hard into his tight heat, rapidly gaining in speed. Jaejoong’s mouth formed a perfect ‘o’ as he felt Changmin reach deeper and deeper inside him.
Changmin latched his lips onto Jaejoong’s swallowing the older one’s scream of pleasure as he finally hit his prostate, sending them both over the edge.
Jaejoong opened his eyes and looked up at Changmin. He felt his heart rate quicken at the sight of Changmin, hot, tired and sweaty, leaning above him and trying to catch his breath.
Feeling Jaejoong’s gaze on him Changmin looked into his lover’s eyes and smiled. He reached down and brought Jaejoong’s wrist to his mouth, pressing a light kiss against it. “Mine. Only Mine.Forever.”
Jaejoong felt tears fall out of the corner of his eyes and reached up to pull Changmin in for a kiss, “Yours. Always yours.”
A/N Well...wow. I hope you'll realise this is my first fic...thereby implying that this is also my first time writing smut. And omg I'm blushing from head to toe right now... :3
I just felt inspired by this..really...i want a hot sweaty changmin too...T_T
Pairing: Jaemin/Homin/Yoomin/Minsu (mainly OT5)
Genre: Fantasy, Romance, AU
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: Character Death, Language
Disclaimer: I want to own them and marry them..but i can't so well..they belong to themselves. This is my first fic so be nice :P Saranghe <3
Summary: Reuniting them is his one last wish. Can he make them face a tomorrow without him?
Chapter 13:
The minute Changmin got home, he was pulled roughly into Yunho's arms. He struggled a little at first, trying to find a comfortable position in the tight embrace, but decided to give up when he felt Yunho's hot tears soak the crook of his neck. Changmin sighed and wrapped his arms around his hyungs neck, burying his face in his shoulder.
When Yunho pulled away, Min shook his head, stopping the Leader from spewing out the million apologies he'd prepared. "Hyung, stop crying and stop feeling guilty. It's not your fault, you didn't know. If I was in your position and I saw someone shooting off their mouth, I would have probably done the same thing. So, please, let it go."
When Min tried to walk past Yunho, to his bedroom, to change his clothes, he felt himself being pulled back into Yunho's embrace once again. "Minnie-yah, don't take on so much on your own. I know that I can be stupid and forgetful at times, but I'm still older than you. I've seen more of this life than you have and I can take care of myself. Give this stupid hyung of yours some credit and let him take care of you sometimes too, alright?" Changmin nodded and smiled sadly, "Hyung, promise me something?" He waited as he felt Yunho nod, "Promise me that when I die...you'll never let anyone forget about me. I don't want to be forgotten..." Changmin trailed off when he heard Yunho's hoarse reply, "They'll never forget minnie-yah. I'll never let them forget." For a long while after, they cried together; talking about their fears, their fates and their past.
After several hours, Changmin found himself sitting on the sofa, with a sleeping Yunho's head on his lap. He stroked the leaders head for a little while longer, before gently moving out from under him and decided to make himself something hot to drink.
Usually it would have been Junsu, making the drink, but the dolphin was still angry at Changmin for sending the video to all their fans and publically humiliating him and had decided to go stay at Yoochun's for the day. Changmin couldn't stop a smile from making its way across his face, when he thought about how indignant his hyung had looked. He didn't bother to point out to Junsu that he'd been nice enough to send the video that only contained the top half of his body. Plus, If I'd sent the other one, Soo Man would have tanned my ass and put me in charge of damage control.
Changmin started when he heard Yunho’s sleepy voice call out to him from the couch, "Min-ah, go see Jaejoong. He must be awake by now. He didn't sleep the entire night because he was worried about you. He only fell asleep once he knew that you were safe. That's why he wasn't here when you got back; he probably doesn't even know that you're back yet."Changmin sighed tiredly. He'd been hoping to avoid any major confrontation with Jaejoong today. But he supposed luck wasn't on his side.
He covered Yunho with a blanket before taking his jacket and walking over to Jaejoong's apartment. He didn't bother ringing the door bell and let himself in, his eyes adjusting to the darkness in the apartment. He searched for the light switches and turned them on, jumping when he saw Jaejoong sitting on the couch staring right at him.
"Yunho- hyung told me you were worried. I came here to tell you that I was fine and that I was back home." Thinking to end the conversation there, Changmin turned on his heels and tried to walk back out, when he felt Jaejoong come up behind him and wrap his arms around his waist, "Min, do you hate me?" When Changmin didn't say anything in response, Jaejoong continued, “It’s okay if you hate me, especially after what I said. But please don't avoid me anymore. Yell at me, throw things at me, call me names. Just don't ignore me anymore. Please."
Changmin shut his eyes against the pain in his heart, trying to block out Jaejoong's desperate plea, " I don't hate you, hyung. Never have and never will. What you said to me... did hurt me...but it was something that I wanted to hear.” He sighed and continued, “ You, Jaejoong, are the one person in this entire world that I could never hate, so stop thinking that I do."
Jaejoong tried to turn Changmin around to face him, but the younger man stayed stubborn and turned his face away. Jaejoong could feel the sorrow and anger inside him bubble up like a vicious snake, ready to strike and screamed, "IF YOU DON'T HATE ME THEN WHY ARE YOU TREATING ME LIKE FUCKING SHIT AND REFUSING TO EVEN LOOK AT ME?!"
Changmin once again said nothing and tried to walk out of the door, but was pulled back with a vicious amount of force and slammed against the adjoining wall. "LOOK AT ME YOU FUCKING BASTARD! TALK TO ME! YELL AT ME! JUST FUCKING DO SOMETHING SO THAT I DON'T FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN THE ONE KILLING YOU INSIDE! JUST MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I MEAN SOMETHING TO YOU!"
Changmin growled low in his throat and reversed their positions, slamming Jaejoong into the wall instead, " YOU STUPID FOOL!" Jaejoong gasped and watched in horrified fascination as Changmin finally lost control, " HOW CAN YOU THINK YOU DON'T MEAN ANYTHING TO ME?! DON'T YOU KNOW ANYTHING?! HOW CAN YOU NOT KNOW, THAT EVERY TIME I LOOK AT YOU I BECOME MORE AND MORE AWARE OF HOW LITTLE TIME I HAVE? HOW CAN YOU NOT KNOW THAT IT'S YOUR FACE THAT MAKES ME CURSE AT EVERY GOD THAT THERE IS BECAUSE THEY'VE GIVEN ME SUCH A STUPID FUCKING LIFE? WHY CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND THAT YOUR PRESENCE MAKES IT HARDER FOR ME TO ACCEPT THAT I'M DYING BECAUSE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND IT KILLS ME TO KNOW THAT I CAN'T ACT ON IT?!" Changmin's voice cracked as he finished his tirade, unable to control his emotions any longer. He watched Jaejoong reach up and press feather light kisses on his cheeks, his forehead and his mouth. “Minnie, I love you too. So much that I can’t think about a life without you, but try anyway.”
When he knew he couldn't take anymore, Changmin grabbed onto Jaejoong's head and pulled him into a rough kiss, desperately trying to convey his complex feelings.
Jaejoong grabbed onto the front of Min's jacket for support and deepened the kiss further, allowing the younger boy's tongue to slip into his mouth and battle for dominance.
He moaned when he felt Changmin nip at his lower lip and tried to press himself closer against the younger one's body. He felt Changmin's hand move under his shirt and gasped when he felt the cold hand caress his over-heated skin. He moved his own arms and wrapped them tightly around the taller one’s neck, running his fingers through the soft hair. "Nngh," Jaejoong moaned as he felt Changmin shift their position and place his knee in between his legs, pushing him tight against the wall. "Min.." he whispered as he felt Changmin place small kisses along his jaw and nibble at the birthmark under his jaw. "More, nnngh, Min..more, haah, please.." He gasped when he felt Changmin's knee grind against his erection and pulled Min's lips back to his, their teeth gnashing against each other as they desperately tried to have as much of each other as possible. Jaejoong pulled Min's upper lip into his mouth and sucked on it as he felt Min's hand trail up the front of his chest and pull at his nipple ring, "Aaah, Min...mmngh, do..do that again...nnah," Changmin growled as he felt Jaejoong's moans surge straight to his groin, "You're such a fucking tease, Jaejoong-ah." Jaejoong felt adrenalin pump through his veins as he heard Changmin say his name,"Only for you Minnie-yah, always for you."
Jaejoong whined in desperation when he felt Changmin pull away from nibbling at his ear lobe. He looked at the younger one, dazed and let himself be pulled into the bedroom. He gasped when he was pushed roughly onto the bed but the gasp quickly turned into a wanton moan as he felt Changmin crawl on top of him and place wet kisses down the column of his throat. "NNGHHHHHH!" He nearly lurched off of the bed when he felt Changmin bite one of his nipples through his t-shirt and turned into a writhing mess when he felt the boy's fingers pinch the other nipple into a tight bud. He pulled Changmin's hips against his own and ground them firmly against each other, eliciting groans from the boy above him.
Jaejoong reached down between their bodies and cupped Changmin's erection, grinding his palm against the hard body, causing the younger one to press down onto him. Changmin pulled away from Jaejoong and pulled their shirts off one at a time. Jaejoong yelped as he felt Changmin bite down on his collar bone, leaving behind an angry red mark that was sure to turn blue the next day. He moaned as the boy’s mouth trailed lower, leaving behind small hickey’s along the way.
“Mnnnghaahh,” Jaejoong gasped and pulled on Changmin’s hair as he felt the boy’s tongue suddenly flick against his piercing and cried out in desperation as Min pulled his nipples into his warm cavern, one at a time, to suck on them roughly.
He sobbed in pleasure as he felt Min’s hand slip into his jeans and boxers and play with his weeping member. “MIN! STOP TEASING…please…mmmmnnng ….fuck me already.”Changmin pulled himself off of Jaejoong and undid his zipper, pulling his pants down along with his boxers and went to do the same to for Jaejoong.
Once they were totally naked, Changmin put Jaejoong’s knees on top of his shoulders and trailed kisses along the inside of his partner’s creamy thighs, making his way towards Jaejoong’s hard on. When he reached his destination, Min licked the tip of Jaejoong’s member, tasting the salty pre-cum in his mouth and causing Jaejoong to arch off of the bed, his body unconsciously seeking Min’s mouth. Changmin smirked at Jaejoong’s reactions and wrapped his fist around the base of the angry red member, using the pre-cum as lubricant to pump it. He leaned down and took the member into his mouth, hollowing his cheeks and sucking on it for all he was worth.
Jaejoong unable to take it anymore came with an Earth shattering force and groaned as he felt Min swallow every last bit of the sticky substance. He reached down and pulled Min up into a searing kiss, both of them panting and sweating from exertion. “Minnie, your throat..is it okay?” Changmin smiled in consolation before kissing Jaejoong again, their swollen lips meshing into one.
When Changmin felt Jaejoong harden again, he grinned mischievously. “Do you have lube?” Jaejoong shook his head; worried that Changmin would stop their activity because of this. Changmin, noticing Jaejoong’s insecurity smiled lightly and pecked him on his lips, “We’ll just have to improvise then.”
Jaejoong’s eyes widened and darkened with lust as he saw Changmin slip his fingers into his mouth and suck on them. He arched off of the bed again, when he felt Min’s fingers enter him, preparing him. “Min..nnngh do it! DO IT NOW!” Changmin didn’t need to be told twice. He grabbed hold of Jaejoong’s thighs and spread them apart, lifting his hips and thrusting in at one go. He stilled as he heard Jaejoong cry out in pain and pleasure. “Mmmnnn…move! God move please..fuck fuck fuck…move!”
Changmin leaned down and kissed Jaejoong before thrusting hard into his tight heat, rapidly gaining in speed. Jaejoong’s mouth formed a perfect ‘o’ as he felt Changmin reach deeper and deeper inside him.
Changmin latched his lips onto Jaejoong’s swallowing the older one’s scream of pleasure as he finally hit his prostate, sending them both over the edge.
Jaejoong opened his eyes and looked up at Changmin. He felt his heart rate quicken at the sight of Changmin, hot, tired and sweaty, leaning above him and trying to catch his breath.
Feeling Jaejoong’s gaze on him Changmin looked into his lover’s eyes and smiled. He reached down and brought Jaejoong’s wrist to his mouth, pressing a light kiss against it. “Mine. Only Mine.Forever.”
Jaejoong felt tears fall out of the corner of his eyes and reached up to pull Changmin in for a kiss, “Yours. Always yours.”
A/N Well...wow. I hope you'll realise this is my first fic...thereby implying that this is also my first time writing smut. And omg I'm blushing from head to toe right now... :3
I just felt inspired by this..really...i want a hot sweaty changmin too...T_T