timeline
wow I think my history is something close
1980's I was a chubby kid and carried the weight until I hit my teens
1983- I was my smallest every because my parents just couldn't afford the food and we were all thin. Sad huh? 13 and I was under a hundred lsbs
1984-1987- bulked up some with better incomes to buy food and gymnastics again. I stayes about 120 which was still considered big for my 5'4" frame.... I felt chubby.
1987 -1990 car accident and damage to my knee. I ended up barely able to walk and with three surgeries done on my knee. I lost a year of high school and gained weight. The end result they never found the full problem of my knee injury and it cracks when I walk still but never as bad as it was then. I bulked up to 180 to 190 ending high school and into college. I was depressed around my thinner friends.
1991- 1995 I lost some weight due to a new job in fast food and didn't realize I had an atkins like diet. I dropped about 20 lbs quickly and then decided to do something about the rest. I went to a doctor that prescribed Ionamin which I took religiously and dropped down to 110 lbs when I did my modeling.
1995-1996 I met my future husband and I no longer modelled (for then) I put on some weight again and ballooned quickly to 150+
1996- I dropped 30lbs by starvation and nerves to fit into a size 8 for my wedding in June
1996-1997- I lost my first baby (july/august)but attempts to save the pregnancy were sad and my only option to lay on my back for a few weeks. It bulked me back up to 150 and beyond quickly.By December of that year I had my wisdom teeth pulled and found out after the first of the year I was preg with my first (living) child. I bulked way up and hit 200 for the first time. I felt justified in all the tacos and fast food because whenever I would worry over my weight a nurse hushed my worries with one sentence. "what better reason is there to gain weight." I thought she was right and I would get the weight off
She was born in september and I was hushed "you can't work out because you're being too noisy." I wanted back in shape. I stayed around 200
1997-1998 I fought with weight and insomnia due to a busy toddler and with woes of my first miscarriage we thought about this perfect angel's siblings. We got pregnant again. I actually stayed the weight I was since this pregnancy seemed to keep me busier and we moved right before the birth but pregnancy weight still happened and about 210
1999 gave birth and lost 20 lbs only to gain it back with the next baby. about 210-40 now. I couldn't go out to do much with three young ones and ended up a strict motherly couch potatoe.
2000- Had my third baby and tried hard to lose the weight but feeding three small ones made it hard and despite the work I ended up staying the same
2000-2002 I ended up helping out with a friend's small babies that were the same age after her hyserectomy. I had five and almost all were in diapers but still not enough activity to drop much despite people saying I looked thinner
2002-2003 I became pregnant again with my last babe and boom shot up to 250 -260 I needed to keep a close eye on her due to bad baby health and no activity.
2005-2007- I stayed the same and it's where I am now. I can't seem to get rid of it but i'm finally making time for me and not just all my chidren. It's sat there dormant and I've tried so many things to start shedding but just when I think I got it coming off.... I'm joking myself
My moment of clarity- I took a picture of myself. I hated taking pictures but my mom wanted pictures of all her childre with her grandchildren and that picture woke me up. I avoided mirrors and cameras for years but finally I had to face this....I made my appointment for the meeting and I'm ready to go with this operation if I could tomorrow.
I just feel as if I've wasted so much time with yo-yo diets and fads. I'm tired of being the cool but fat momma and I'm ready to march along with the others again.
I got the equipment to exercise and my husband is trying to help the diet with the difference of NO JUNK FOOD. He said we may as well all get used to it since he wants to lose weight as well. Yes, having those kids keeps you inside when one gets sick easily.
He said he would go through the surgery with me except he said he doubts he could do his martial arts and he would expect a hit to the stomach to be devasting.
I'm still not sure of my exact weight but I get the feeling I'll hear tomorrow :(
1980's I was a chubby kid and carried the weight until I hit my teens
1983- I was my smallest every because my parents just couldn't afford the food and we were all thin. Sad huh? 13 and I was under a hundred lsbs
1984-1987- bulked up some with better incomes to buy food and gymnastics again. I stayes about 120 which was still considered big for my 5'4" frame.... I felt chubby.
1987 -1990 car accident and damage to my knee. I ended up barely able to walk and with three surgeries done on my knee. I lost a year of high school and gained weight. The end result they never found the full problem of my knee injury and it cracks when I walk still but never as bad as it was then. I bulked up to 180 to 190 ending high school and into college. I was depressed around my thinner friends.
1991- 1995 I lost some weight due to a new job in fast food and didn't realize I had an atkins like diet. I dropped about 20 lbs quickly and then decided to do something about the rest. I went to a doctor that prescribed Ionamin which I took religiously and dropped down to 110 lbs when I did my modeling.
1995-1996 I met my future husband and I no longer modelled (for then) I put on some weight again and ballooned quickly to 150+
1996- I dropped 30lbs by starvation and nerves to fit into a size 8 for my wedding in June
1996-1997- I lost my first baby (july/august)but attempts to save the pregnancy were sad and my only option to lay on my back for a few weeks. It bulked me back up to 150 and beyond quickly.By December of that year I had my wisdom teeth pulled and found out after the first of the year I was preg with my first (living) child. I bulked way up and hit 200 for the first time. I felt justified in all the tacos and fast food because whenever I would worry over my weight a nurse hushed my worries with one sentence. "what better reason is there to gain weight." I thought she was right and I would get the weight off
She was born in september and I was hushed "you can't work out because you're being too noisy." I wanted back in shape. I stayed around 200
1997-1998 I fought with weight and insomnia due to a busy toddler and with woes of my first miscarriage we thought about this perfect angel's siblings. We got pregnant again. I actually stayed the weight I was since this pregnancy seemed to keep me busier and we moved right before the birth but pregnancy weight still happened and about 210
1999 gave birth and lost 20 lbs only to gain it back with the next baby. about 210-40 now. I couldn't go out to do much with three young ones and ended up a strict motherly couch potatoe.
2000- Had my third baby and tried hard to lose the weight but feeding three small ones made it hard and despite the work I ended up staying the same
2000-2002 I ended up helping out with a friend's small babies that were the same age after her hyserectomy. I had five and almost all were in diapers but still not enough activity to drop much despite people saying I looked thinner
2002-2003 I became pregnant again with my last babe and boom shot up to 250 -260 I needed to keep a close eye on her due to bad baby health and no activity.
2005-2007- I stayed the same and it's where I am now. I can't seem to get rid of it but i'm finally making time for me and not just all my chidren. It's sat there dormant and I've tried so many things to start shedding but just when I think I got it coming off.... I'm joking myself
My moment of clarity- I took a picture of myself. I hated taking pictures but my mom wanted pictures of all her childre with her grandchildren and that picture woke me up. I avoided mirrors and cameras for years but finally I had to face this....I made my appointment for the meeting and I'm ready to go with this operation if I could tomorrow.
I just feel as if I've wasted so much time with yo-yo diets and fads. I'm tired of being the cool but fat momma and I'm ready to march along with the others again.
I got the equipment to exercise and my husband is trying to help the diet with the difference of NO JUNK FOOD. He said we may as well all get used to it since he wants to lose weight as well. Yes, having those kids keeps you inside when one gets sick easily.
He said he would go through the surgery with me except he said he doubts he could do his martial arts and he would expect a hit to the stomach to be devasting.
I'm still not sure of my exact weight but I get the feeling I'll hear tomorrow :(