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Sep 05, 2005 03:28

Uh, yea. I think I'll go with this journal... -.-; Excuse my poetry-like paragraphs. Hnh... Have no other idea how to write this out...

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I want to sleep. I want to sleep. I want to relax...

My bed is retarded--it shakes. Wait, maybe that's the floor.

I want you to be okay. Are you going to be okay? Is it too late for you to be okay?

I want for this to be over. I want for you to be happy. Can you be happy? Will this end?

I want to hold you. I want to, every night. But tonight, I want to protect you so much more. Lock your doors for you and keep you from what's lying in the dark...

It's not right. Nothing about it is right. Are you alright? Can things turn out alright?

I wonder--are you scared? I am, too. I want to take you away from your fears. That will soothe my own...

I think about you--running. Why can't you stop? Why won't they let you... I want you to be able to stop running. I know how tired you are.

My head hurts. Yours does too, I think.

We spoke about what you wanted, once... I wasn't selfish then. You want to know what you've lost. You want to feel okay. Can we get you what you want?

If you're happy--If you're okay--If you're alright--If it does not tire you--If it soothes you--If this will help you... Then I want it, too.

I am tired. I am restless. I am confused.

But God, do I love you. And that, if anything, is a start on the track of something new and better. I want to help.

For you, even I will give up my desires. For you, I'd give my everything...

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There... Now that it's posted. Heh.
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