again with the updating
First of all - I apologize for being remiss in replying to things, commenting and generally staying in touch.
Since I moved to Stockholm I have been alternating between being crazy busy - at work - and dead sluggish - at home. First it was just the general exhaustion of starting a new job, getting into the rhythm of getting up in the mornings and so on. I think I've got a pretty decent handle on that part now :o) But then there's the feeling of being in limbo, not having a real home where I feel settled, and being bored and alone evenings and week-ends. Those week-ends when I'm not travelling crazily across the country that is...
I've never been much good at instigating things, but for most of my life that hasn't really been a huge problem. I've been at school and lived with my family - which provided plenty of social stimulance. Then I lived in a student hall, then I lived with Niklas. But here, and in Boston, I live alone [1] and am completely responsible for my own entertainment. Which, as it turns out, I suck at. I know a few people here, but they're mostly busy and have families of their own. I get bored just walking around by myself. There's a limit to how much I can hang out at cafés or go shopping. So I sit at home, veg around, and watch old Star Trek episodes. Slowly melting my brain. And that sluggishness is contagious - it makes me not want to do anything much of anything.
Tonight's been pretty good though. Started the day totally on the wrong foot - train was late, forgot my lunch - but after dinner I've managed to email about hotel reservations for easter[2], a singer about the wedding, the caterer and plan this week-end with my mum, oh, and help my aunt with a computer problem. Yesterday I did some tweaks of the invites and the website. Didn't go work out as planned today, but I did go yesterday, so it's not that bad.
I'm feeling good about stuff right now though, which is nice :o)
[2] don't know if anything's available yet though, I guess if I don't have a reply tomorrow or so I'll have to phone
[1] For certain values of alone. In both cases I have a flatmate, but no family, and it's not the same.
Since I moved to Stockholm I have been alternating between being crazy busy - at work - and dead sluggish - at home. First it was just the general exhaustion of starting a new job, getting into the rhythm of getting up in the mornings and so on. I think I've got a pretty decent handle on that part now :o) But then there's the feeling of being in limbo, not having a real home where I feel settled, and being bored and alone evenings and week-ends. Those week-ends when I'm not travelling crazily across the country that is...
I've never been much good at instigating things, but for most of my life that hasn't really been a huge problem. I've been at school and lived with my family - which provided plenty of social stimulance. Then I lived in a student hall, then I lived with Niklas. But here, and in Boston, I live alone [1] and am completely responsible for my own entertainment. Which, as it turns out, I suck at. I know a few people here, but they're mostly busy and have families of their own. I get bored just walking around by myself. There's a limit to how much I can hang out at cafés or go shopping. So I sit at home, veg around, and watch old Star Trek episodes. Slowly melting my brain. And that sluggishness is contagious - it makes me not want to do anything much of anything.
Tonight's been pretty good though. Started the day totally on the wrong foot - train was late, forgot my lunch - but after dinner I've managed to email about hotel reservations for easter[2], a singer about the wedding, the caterer and plan this week-end with my mum, oh, and help my aunt with a computer problem. Yesterday I did some tweaks of the invites and the website. Didn't go work out as planned today, but I did go yesterday, so it's not that bad.
I'm feeling good about stuff right now though, which is nice :o)
[2] don't know if anything's available yet though, I guess if I don't have a reply tomorrow or so I'll have to phone
[1] For certain values of alone. In both cases I have a flatmate, but no family, and it's not the same.