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after last weekend i was thinking of cutting down on my drinking. thursday, after getting shit on by stupid assholes while passing out newspapers that are a waste of everything natural for only $20 dollars pay... i was sitting in my dimly lit flat in an apartment without a bathroom or kitchen, sweating my dirty ass off alone, i thought... there is no reason at all to stop drinking. if anything, my life right now is an example of why one should increase alcohol intake.
if i know you right now i probably dont like you and this comes with no reasoning at all. im just really angry, bitter and out of positive energy.
when a period of time thats relative to something in my life comes to an end i tend to overlook those minutes and make a conclusion of it. the training portion of my year long school to work program ends next week. i've been thinking of the happenings that occured in that six months and its one of the best and worst periods.
i jumped into this at what i thought was rock bottom. recovering from a destructive 3rd shift warehouse job thinking i had nothing. with a weeks notice i moved into a room in boston that i felt posi about. now, after six months... ive set up a really good situation as far as schooling goes, with a free education from BC pretty much guaranteed as long as i keep my shit together... but my personal/social life is shit. allston/my house is pretty much a sore spot for me which i loathe. i havent made many new friends. i dont exactly like to talk to many poeple with an exception of a few.
im just not feeling it lately and whining in livejournal about it isnt going to do anything either.
if i know you right now i probably dont like you and this comes with no reasoning at all. im just really angry, bitter and out of positive energy.
when a period of time thats relative to something in my life comes to an end i tend to overlook those minutes and make a conclusion of it. the training portion of my year long school to work program ends next week. i've been thinking of the happenings that occured in that six months and its one of the best and worst periods.
i jumped into this at what i thought was rock bottom. recovering from a destructive 3rd shift warehouse job thinking i had nothing. with a weeks notice i moved into a room in boston that i felt posi about. now, after six months... ive set up a really good situation as far as schooling goes, with a free education from BC pretty much guaranteed as long as i keep my shit together... but my personal/social life is shit. allston/my house is pretty much a sore spot for me which i loathe. i havent made many new friends. i dont exactly like to talk to many poeple with an exception of a few.
im just not feeling it lately and whining in livejournal about it isnt going to do anything either.