Huh?! Radio?
First of all, please post the links to all the applications (regular OR theme) you have voted on:
http://community.livejournal.com/shrating/95513.html#cutid1
http://community.livejournal.com/shrating/95410.html#cutid1
http://community.livejournal.com/shrating/95124.html#cutid1
http://community.livejournal.com/shrating/94831.html#cutid1
http://community.livejournal.com/shrating/94562.html#cutid1
http://community.livejournal.com/shrating/94348.html#cutid1
http://community.livejournal.com/shrating/94007.html#cutid1
http://community.livejournal.com/shrating/93690.html#cutid1
http://community.livejournal.com/shrating/93260.html#cutid1
THE BASICS
01. Name: Blue.
02. Age: Teens.
03. Gender: Female.
04. Is that also the gender you would like to be stamped as? Nah, it doesn't matter.
If this is a re-stamp, feel free to tell us who you were stamped as last time and in what ways you think this person does not correspond to your personality: N/A
05. Likes: Cool weather, rain, coffee, tea, boots, scarves, bandannas, jackets, blue, monochrome, fireworks, lengthy car rides, music, leisure time either alone or with close friends, the arts, writing, ambient light.
06. Dislikes: Tedious/dull work, noise pollution, obnoxiousness, screwing up, being pressured, harsh light, unconstructive criticism, people who can't seem to stop stalling, being patronized, invasion of privacy/personal space, being tested, interruption, knowing fully well when others have what I want, being ignored or not heard out.
07. Strengths: I'm right-brained and very intelligent, able to think complex things through, solve puzzles, and get very creative. Intense and endless loyalty and trustworthiness to those I think deserve it, willingness to keep secrets, giving things my all when they matter to me, willingness to stick up for myself and anyone I like or anything I feel strongly about, I'm socially reserved, and I have a sort of allure or charisma among certain kinds of people (I didn't make any of my friends myself, they came to me, and my mother and a couple of friends insist that I'm an egg/M&M/insert metaphor here - for all my ambiguous exterior, they say I'm quite charming and genial around people I warm up to and a marshmallow towards those I luuuv).
08. Weaknesses: I can come off as arrogant or at least chilly or similarly hard to approach at times, lack of an attention span and need to keep myself occupied in some way (even if that way is just daydreaming at the expense of knowing what the heck everyone nearby is doing), moodiness/sensitivity, stubbornness and being fiercely opinionated, cynicism, tendencies to creep people who aren't strangely drawn to me out or intimidate them, inability to get or stay motivated on things that don't interest me, that I get way too into things that do interest me, tendencies to focus more on details than things as a whole, overall times I get a bit obsessive, being easily flustered, cockiness, on the other side of the coin inability to look forward to things as a defense mechanism from being let down (I don't so much as take compliments unless I think on them for an unnecessary amount of time until I'm sure they really are compliments, sometimes the existence of sarcasm can make insecurities worse XP), being impossible for people who don't know me through and through to read or know what to make of, whenever I'm not being plain "reserved" I'm told I'm seriously reclusive, that I'm far too brutally honest when I'm not being too secretive, I can either be much too literal or much too overanalytical, harsh perfectionism, either being ridiculously self-depricating on stupid little things or evading that they ever happened, impatience, nervous habits, spite and holding grudges, blowing things out of proportion, guilting myself, dwelling on things, paranoia, refusal to socialize, cracking under intense pressure, that I can't stand having my bubble invaded, an inability to trust, that I probably won't ever give it back if it's broken no matter what the circumstances or intentions are before or after... To name a few.
THIS OR THAT
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09. Optimistic or pessimistic? Realistic, in my own eyes, though I apparently lean towards pessimism thanks to being cynical and paranoid.
10. Leader or follower? Generally, I don't often attach myself to heirarchy, at least conventionally. My brain tends to place people I dislike/distrust below me, people I admire above me, people I like/trust as equals or somewhat above me, and set authority figures as disregarded if I don't like the way they're doing things. Everything really depends on context/details - if I think I have any right to or just don't trust/lack patience for anyone else's judgement but my own in a formal group setting, I'll try to take responsibility, but I'm more inclined to follow people I really, really like and/or really, really trust.
11. Introvert or extrovert? Introvert.
12. Mature or immature? Mature, with immature outbursts/tendencies.
13. Violent or peaceful? Peaceful whenever I can help it. I dislike confrontation and pointless carnage = bad idea. I can be aggressive if I think I'm being challenged, but in any case, I can't see pointless carnage destruction or pain as a good idea. Even if you must take on something physically, do it cleanly, with precision, and with minimal casualties.
14. Selfish or altruistic? Altruistic, especially if there's something personal about a situation where I have to choose between the two. I'll let myself be selfish if I can't see any repurcussions and/or it's no or minimal hindrance to anyone else, like anyone, but I really try to be restrained and I'd rather be a help than a nuisance. If I were to do something downright selfish, however, it'd probably be a matter of pride or being way too absorbed in something.
15. Rude or polite? I try to be polite. I can be rude when agitated, though I definitely don't go out of my way to be. More often than not, it's a case of "Oh. I didn't realize I was saying that out loud."/"...Bad choice of words."/"...Should I not have said that?"/"I didn't think you would mind."
16. Eat here or take away? Take away. To home, a sofa, an open window, nice lighting, a bit of music and/or episodes of Criminal Minds or Powerpuff Girls, and possibly a shower.
JUMP DOWN THE HOLE
17. How do you present yourself in the company of friends? If they're not really friends per se but people I happen to get along with, I'll probably act a bit wary, shy, or detached but as pleasant and charming as I can, throwing in a joke or hopefully-clever addition to conversation now and then. My interactions with genuine and close friends are generally more relaxed, though they might have a dash of more politeness/cautious restraint in them with the tendency to apologize for random things or worry I'm doing something out of line. I can't really overall describe what I'm like around people I may as well be attached to at the hip, since that's extremely rare, and I haven't been in love. XD But in general, I'm capable of displaying affection, just awkwardly/shyly/restrainedly/just not openly.
18. And in the company of your enemies? Not particularly inviting. X_X I try to play my disliking over or put a temporary lid on it to keep that kind of thing from getting in the way, maybe while dropping hints here and there, but it can manifest as an obvious cold, tense, I-have-my-eye-on-you, edge-away-with-a-death-glare-whenever-they-come-close growliness, which is probably as good as not hiding it at all. X_X Either way, I try to be contained about it. Though if I think they're challenging me or just don't want to have to deal with them, I, er, may give some more obvious sign of disdain. There's always at least going to be some kind of "I don't like you, you don't like me" tension going on.
19. And what about the company of strangers? Shy and/or aloof/suspicious, unless I really can't resist saying something.
20. How do you react to people insulting your beliefs (your faith or your opinions in general)? If it seemed more like argument than attack, then chances are there'd go my usual reservedness and here'd come a motormouthed I-like-to-talk-about-things-I-like-mode. If it did seem like an attack, yes, I'd probably turn visibly aggravated and defend it from at least my point of view.
21. And people insulting your loved ones? "Nobody talks about my mother/brother/friends that way. >/" I'd say that would be the quickest way to pull me into a no-rules physical conflict.
22. And what about people insulting you? That depends on the insult, the delivery, and who it's coming from. I'll take it if loved ones are seriously pointing out my shortcomings, especially if I agree with them, though it might give my mood a pretty hard hit. Otherwise I try to turn it around, civilly-as-I-can sort out the situation, or pretend I didn't hear it, which won't stop me from sulking in a corner or slinking over to someone I'm close to with a "...He called me a ____ *"=<"-s*" afterwards if it actually did get to me.
23. Are you better at coping with physical or mental pain? Physical - it's much easier to just shake off. Then again, maybe I'm all right at both but sort of just don't forget about mental pain the way a kid might dwell on a scraped knee that's already been disinfected and covered up. I try not to make a show out of either kind and deal with it quietly and on my own, either way.
24. Are you better at defending yourself physically or verbally? That depends on what'd be most effective in the given situation. I think I can do both nicely, but then again, there are times people just don't let you talk for a second.
25. Do you prefer to assault people physically or verbally? Verbally. Physical gets you in so much more trouble and it's really just a last resort unless talking is seriously not an option - I'd rather outwit my enemies.
THE TOWN THAT TAKES ALL
26. Which Silent Hill character do you LEAST identify with and why? Eh. Probably either Maria or Laura. Maria is really just not me and I don't think of myself as obnoxious, rude, troublemaking, insensitive, and not at all afraid of Silent Hill.
27. Time to introduce you in a CUT SCENE! Are you the protagonist or somebody they meet? If you are the protagonist, then what brought you here? If not, what will you be found doing and how will you react to meeting that other person? I'm definitely a side character, and I could see myself in any role from there, depending on the circumstances, and I was probably either looking for a close friend or just happened to wander in in an effort to keep myself busy for whatever reason. I'd probably be encountered bending over a desk looking at some strange note or book I found lying around in the corner of a room with genuine wide-eyed interest and jump five feet in the air when I hear the protagonist coming in with my hand darting over to a weapon, then try not a hundred percent successfully to smooth myself back out and apologize, maybe ask something along the lines of "Am I in the way?" or "What are you doing here, you need something?" Then either say I'd probably better get going, maybe whipping out a notebook and scribbling something down in it, or ask if they'd like someone to accompany them. There's definite truth in safety in numbers.
28. Will you stay alone or join somebody else as soon as possible? Silent Hill really doesn't strike me as the sort of place one would want to be all alone in, so if I happened by someone, I'd probably ask them if they'd have me along or vice versa, though I probably wouldn't be completely thrilled or comfortable with it unless it was someone I already knew beforehand by a stretch. If it started getting to my head, though, I may start getting paranoid or realize/overanalyze that the monsters reflect oneself and in a fit of being irrational not want them looking in my head and break off.
29. Congratulations, you are now deceased! Next to your corpse, written in blood there is one sentence. What does it say? In my first-mentioned case of reason for being in Silent Hill in the first place, I'd probably assume a friend would happen by and I'd try to write one of the trying-to-be-but-actually-not-so-comforting don't-feel-bad-about-it monologues from near the end of Merchant of Venice before losing consciousness half a line in. X_X If it were the right person I were looking for, cutting it short but making the same reference, "You're the Bassanio to my Antonio." Maybe this is getting too personal for a rating community, but really, I've always wanted to say that, and if I'm dead, it won't matter to me how my heterosexual life partner (a term I'm only gutsy enough to use because I heavily doubt she'll see this) construes it. Maybe just "I'm sorry" or something nonsensical otherwise.
30. And which set of lyrics, either from a song or poem would you like us to remember you by? I'm guessing the second song I used at the Lovechild Theme on residenterating would work better for a situation like this than my usual overall go-to songs.
"Oh, and I'm feeling directionless, yes
But that's to be expected and I know that best
And in creeps the morning and another day's lost
You've just written wondering, and I reply fast
All you need to save me
All you need to save me
Call, and I'll be curled on the floor hiding out from it all
And I won't take any other call
I feel like a fool, so I'm going to stop troubling you
Buried in my yard, a letter to send to you
And if I forget, or, god forbid, die too soon
I hope that you'll hear me and know that I wrote to you
All you need to say to me
All you need to say to me
Is call, and I'll be curled on the floor hiding out from it all
And I won't take any other call."
31. Lastly, feel free to include one picture (no larger than 600 x 600) or a description of yourself. I'm 'bout five and a half feet tall with embarrassingly broad shoulders and a somewhat androgynous build for my gender but decent curves, my eyes and hair are similar shades of dark brown, I'm a glasses-wearer and have a love-hate relationship with that fact (if I don't think I'm going to need the things and I look better in whatever I'm wearing without them, they're off - me deciding whether they're necessary gets me leaving them on most of the time, however, they're transition-lense and I've gotten used to that), dark circles 'round my eyes, hair is in a bob about shoulder-length and gets increasingly wavy towards the ends, parted off to the side and with a strawberry blonde streak left behind by dye. A tendency to put on an often-noted smirk when amused and look "8/" most of the rest of the time. I've made references to the way I tend to dress.