This room isn't big enough for the both of us
Silent Hill 4 Theme
== pulsating ambience ==
Name: Olivia
Age: 16
Gender: Female
The links to three unstamped applications you have voted on:
You touched my body once...
== into the depths of self discovery ==
As far as you know, describe what first impression people usually get from you.
Depending on the context, I either come off as quiet and shy, distant and contemptuous or a condescending bitch. The first two present themselves more often when we're in person, the last over the internet. Anonymity turns people into douchebags.
(And, well, I've always been bold and opinionated, but apparently I'm less prone to showing that while in front of people.)
Sooo... what were you up to yesterday?
I slept, ate, played Sims, got frustrated that despite having InSIMenator installed I couldn't make two characters go at it because I stupidly made them related in a mother/daughter way (lol Freud), found out a ton of different things about the game I hadn't known previously... Not very interesting, I know.
Is this one of your typical days or was there anything special about it?
A typical day. Well, I hadn't played Sims in a while and my schedule has been in a gradual rotation, but mostly typical. (And before you get any ideas, no, the incest wasn't typical.)
Do you consider yourself fearless?
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Fearless. Please. I kiss my mother on the cheek every night because I'm afraid she won't be around for me to do it again the following morning. (Of course, I'm not a total pansy, but then again I've never played this series for myself -- I force others to do it while I watch.)
Do others do so too?
Well, I am better at facing up to my fears than many. Most think I ask them to order food for me or speak to other people because I'm afraid of doing it myself, but I'm really just lazy.
Would you describe yourself as macabre?
Nah, but I'm sure there's a bit of it in there somewhere.
Would other people agree?
Well~ I was the one who got all of my friends into survival horror.
Are you outgoing?
Maybe in a sense. I'm not really scared of people, I'm just tired of how stupid they can be -- but I still seek out their company anyway. I tend to be more outgoing when I've known a person for a while.
Do others see you like that as well?
I get the feeling a lot of people see me as a shut-in or a misanthrope. So, nah.
Social situations or homicidal ghosts - what's scarier?
... Why is this even a question? The ghosts, duh. At least the social situations aren't trying to kill you. Most of the time.
Seriously though, people tend to be more annoying than intimidating.
And which one did you say you'd rather take - physical or mental pain?
Mental, but that's just because I've never been faced with any real traumatic experiences. One can argue that physical is easier to remedy, but what about things like terminal illness? I always figured you could get over anything if it was all in your head. (What is simply 'all in your head' is up for debate, though.)
== traversing the portals of reality ==
If I called you on a typical Saturday evening, where would you be?
Home, probably. I'd be hanging out with friends if any of them had the time to be hanging out.
And if I called you on a typical Sunday morning, oh say 5 am, how would you react?
A little unnerved, but only because nobody I know is ever up til 5 am by their own will. (Aside from myself, but that's usually because I haven't slept yet.)
Hm. A young boy has apparently taken to standing outside your house / apartment building every day. Just what are you going to do about it?
... Nothing. This complex is filled with small children standing outside the door and stairwells. It's practically the norm here.
More hm. Looks like your phone, your TV and your computer don't work. You also can't seem to get anybody to hear you when you yell. Oh and did I mention that you can't actually leave your house/apartment? Now now, what's your reaction to that?
I'd be fine without the phone and the TV, maybe even having to stay in, but the computer? I'd probably suffer a mental breakdown. >_>
Oh hey, look! It's your six-year-old self! If we called them over to say hi, how would the meeting go?
Awkwardly, since I'm not very good with kids. My six-year-old self wasn't very talkative, and when she was she usually got in the way. I might not even like her that much.
Let's see... we still have some crazy religious issues here, but this time apparently mommy's part of the mix. And since we've covered God and all that jazz, how's the relationship with your dear mother going? If you don't feel like talking about it, your favourite flower is of course of equal interest to us.
Mum is probably one of the most important people in my life. Given the fact I and many others would equate her to the second coming, it's not hard to see why. She's always been there for me and others, though, even when she wasn't feeling good -- a lot more nurturing than an apartment building, but she isn't without her (un)fair share of problems.
Flower-wise, I'm honestly not much of a flower person. Roses or cherry blossoms, I guess.
== resting comfortably ==
Oh noes! We're all out of guns! And uhm, the swords, knives and chainsaws are all dirty and unsanitary. So say, which item are you going to use to defend yourself instead?
... Well, if all the firearms and typical weapons are out of the question, I might as well book it. I'm not too interested in slaying everything I'm faced with, especially if I can just avoid them altogether.
Dammit! Looks like your item didn't do it. You have just been killed and they're playing your funeral theme song. Care to share the lyrics or a link to that song?
I bet you'd feel like talking if I was filming a movie
About your life and what it really means from the outside looking in
As shadows fill the wall of a cave in a downtown theatre
All your mistakes add up, well it's a real tear-jerker
Your life, it's such a mess
But everyone's impressed
When I play
Make no mistake
I play
Make no mistake
It's not the way it should be
It's how it's gonna be
It's not a flash back, it's a memory
All eyes are fixed on you
Fade in, your past crashes in waves on the lawn
Fade out, your last laugh lasts a little too long
In your contract, there's a clause
So you'd better save your applause
When I play
Make no mistake
I play
Make no mistake
I'd bet you'd find inspiration if I loaned you a car
With a map to the homes of porno stars
I know you dream about that stuff
On video, when you're alone, you can't get enough of her
But inside her own home, boy, you can't get it up for her
Send in the stunt man
Your family will be so proud
You're gonna have to peel them from the couch
When I play
Make no mistake
I play
Make no mistake
Make no mistake
If I say act right now in something you believe in
I bet you'd say all the good ideas have already been taken
So let the vultures have their way
Emptying the shelves in the bargain basements
Filling the same frames with different places
So take one last look at yourself
Because the film is running out
-- Make No Mistake by the Candy Butchers
Now which Silent Hill 4 character do you consider yourself least like and why?
Braintree. Like I've said before, I'm nowhere near as blindly sadistic. Even if I don't like certain people, I won't jump to the occasion to hurt them -- bringing people pain won't give me half the satisfaction it does to bring them pleasure.
Anything else you would like to add? Nope!