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I shouldn't be this depressed over Rajah. We should have been expecting this at any moment, but I'm just not ready for it. The house won't be the same without him around. No more coming running every time we use the can opener. No more meowing at me whenever I come down the stairs. No more running to visit whoever's in the bathroom. No more lying on the back of my chair when I use the computer.
I just feel so fucking helpless. He's dying and there's nothing I can do about it. It isn't like when the other cats died. Two of them were hit by cars and two of them were put to sleep. It was quick and relatively easy. The worst part is not knowing. I could wake up tomorrow and find him dead on the floor. Or a week from now. Or even a month. I don't know and it's tearing me up inside.
I'm crying and I can already feel that this is going to be a regular thing. I just wish there was something I could do.
I shouldn't be this distraught over a cat...
I just feel so fucking helpless. He's dying and there's nothing I can do about it. It isn't like when the other cats died. Two of them were hit by cars and two of them were put to sleep. It was quick and relatively easy. The worst part is not knowing. I could wake up tomorrow and find him dead on the floor. Or a week from now. Or even a month. I don't know and it's tearing me up inside.
I'm crying and I can already feel that this is going to be a regular thing. I just wish there was something I could do.
I shouldn't be this distraught over a cat...