School drug tested me. why? not i was high...because i was crying.

[shr0omtastic]

So. today i had a really bad day...my teacher made me cry and i got a detention for my first late to that class. I am pmsing so im fucking emotional sorry. So tried to go to class but it just got to me...i started to cry so i asked my teacher if i could talk to my psychologist, so she gave me a pass. I talked to Ms. Conti for 4 periods just crying

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think of all the good times<3

[itsjustaphase_x]

dear sarah,

i love you more than you will ever know. you are the sunshine of my life. (oh man now i'm crying) i wish i could make everything at school go away for you. i wish i could punch every single administrator in the fucken face. i wish i could make this day disappear as if it never happened.. but its these things, these days, that make us stronger. i know that you are a strong person and you will be able to make it through this. i know you can, because i believe in you. you are such a strong person.. and i admire you so much for it. you are never afraid to take risks, and i really respect you for that because, i do too, but im always so damn paranoid. >haha< but all jokes aside, you are a great person, and if people can't see that just because you do drugs, FUCK them. Fuck all the judgemental people that think you are so fucken horrible for wanting to do drugs. FUCK northern. FUCK everyone who aren't accepting of other people. FUCK EVERYONE. im glad that we got you to cheer up a bit in lunch. when you ran up to me at the end of the day, i was so happy to see you<3. and so sad at the same time because i knew what was gonna happen. i'm so sorry i wish i could take it all away.

you mean a lot to me sarah. honestly, more than you know. You have made this year so awesome in so many ways. we have had such great times together, and there are so many more to come. i love you S.A.D. so dont be sad! hahah. that was clever. ;D and remember:

"i'll be here a while, ain't goin no where" -so you know i'm not goin anywhere, im always here for you.

"think of all the good times, instead of wish we could times, so much better that way." -just think of all our great times! THE COLORS DUKE, THE COLORS! aavuhshavushavusha. hahahahha (rewinding)

"we spend our lives learning. if you like learning, life is large. IT COULD NEVER BE ONLY THE UPS. THE DOWNS WILL ALWAYS COME AROUND." -remember that even tho there are bad times, there are always good times.

"its been a wild ride, I WOULDN'T CHANGE A MINUTE. i can't slow down inside, guess thats why i live it" -to remind you to live it up while you still can.

"it's alright to feel good" -to remind you that its still alright to get high and feel great! <3

"don't give up the fight to stay alive, and even if you have to find the reason of anothers pain, if they lose you. if not for yourself, then those around WHO CARE LIKE I DO." -to remind you to keep up the fight we call "life" and that i care about you so much.

and finally...

"One day you'll see the clear blue... beyond the gray sky" -to remind you that past all these dark times, there is always a beautiful blue sky...

Love ALWAYS,
Sarah<3

Re: think of all the good times<3

[shr0omtastic]

Sarah, I love you soooo fucking much. YOU MADE ME CRY GOD DAMMIT. but this time out of all the tears i spilled today these were tears of happiness. I've always had a best friend here and there in my life. but in the end they've always got up and walked away because they baught into peoples dislikes about me. You have changed my fucking life so much and given me new meaning to the word best friend, that i didnt know anyone could be this close and feel this way without being family (which you are) or gay hahaha. you and kelly mean so fucking much to me. I've had my problems in life, but im so glad im still here and i've gotten to say im your friend. Everyday you make going to northern possible and give me hope for the next day to come and i cant thank you enough for saving me, for showing me that a person can care so much for somebody (Why did you have to make me cry dammit lol) After that one time we shro0med together, we just had this fucking amazing connection and when you had that period of time things changed between us, i got extremely upset and scared...but i knew things were going to be ok...and they were and it just goes to show we're fucking stronger than the average people. I dont know if i can show you how much gratitude i have but im going to surely fucking try.
"Do what you feel the more absurb the better
Don't be afraid whatever you got, show
Flaunt your personality, let me know your
stylo
You could make a mean hand out of what you
been dealt"

"Just sever that leash and release
Your freedom of speech
You just have to believe
Your deed will be received
Somehow somewhere
You won't be repaid with a blank stare
Let me know if you dare"

"I took it as a compliment
Regardless what they meant
It could have been innocent
Spent, so spent
Railing against undeserved
Dangling precipitants
Raining down idiots
Always flapping in the
Flapping in the wind

I took it as a compliment
No matter what they meant
Could have been belligerent
Could have been half percent
Could have been wanting
Afraid to have been caught promising
Ended up taunting me

I can’t change that
I can’t change
I can’t change that
I can’t change

I’m watching you
Not sure what’s true
Life can be so cruel
There’s nothing you can do
But it fades...
Only to return"

Thank you...I will always be here for you...i love you S.A.M thank you so much.

Re: think of all the good times<3

[itsjustaphase_x]

<3 not enough words to describe my feelings.