Rehab
Damn...well some shits finally cought up to me i guess....but I'm goin to rehab tomorrow mornin...eh itll be my first time and hopefully my last....it was willingly...i was the one who wanted to go...but the more time passes and the more i think about it...I'm becoming more scared, I'm not sure if its the future without heroin and some other drugs..or if thats even possible for me, i know i can live without heroin if i really try..but i dunno drugs became my normal and face it i god damn love drugs..I cant live a completely sober life..I know when i get out im going to smoke and do mushrooms and acid..purhaps pills even...i dunno if thats a real shitty mind set but i just wanna go back to the green stuff and mushrooms maaan fdkljfalk anyway i dont even know what i'm saying sorry if i sound fucking dumb as hell right now but i have a million thoughts running through my head, anyway...I'm going to be gone for 2 weeks...no big deal compared to a bettter life but...i dunno...im going to miss thanksgiving with my family and stuff like that...i dunno...i just feel very selfish but i know i shouldnt but i do in someway ;\