I'm Not Quite..
I'm not quite as stupid as people may think I am.
I just don't talk, because I don't think anything that I say it worth saying, because no one ever listens to me.
I'm not very happy with how things are going right now.
School SUCKS. I think people think I'm stupid because of how I do in classes. But, frankley, I don't do good in anything that I don't like doing. Hence, not doing well in Chemistry, becuase of that very reason.
People need to learn to understand people. You'd be surprised the things that people deal with. You would never know. Someone could just be going on with life, and look like they're normal and fine, but they're not. They have extensive amounts of shit, emotional, personal that they have to deal with, while going to a fuck-whole school.
School honestly screws people up. I sware to god it does.
I hate how I treat people. I don't not liking people just because they annoy me. I don't think it's right, or moral, whatever that may mean.
I hate where I am. I am so stuck. I just need to figure things out. But it is so hard, because I really am just so messed up right now.
I have a hard time expressing myself, and just being who I am. I have a hard time finding friends that I'm comfortable with.
You want to know why I say sorry so much? Yeah, it's because I think maybe if I say sorry people will like me better, and want to be my friend and hang out with me more. Amazing, no?
I depise myself for the most part... and I don't like that. Because, I just want to know that I'm a good person, but I don't feel like I am..
I hate how I'm not comfortable with myself, and I think everyone hates me. I hate it so much. I want to change it. But, I don't know how.
I know why I think that. Because of my stupid dance teacher when I was younger. She used to yell at us all the time.
I'm so afraid of yelling. It makes me so scared.
I just want to be "normal" for a day. Just be careless and comfortable with myself. But, sadly that won't happen.. anytime soon.
It's not fair that I listen to everyone, and try to help them out. But, when it comes to myself, I don't feel like I can really tell anyone how I feel. I really feel alone so much. It sucks.
I WANT TO FIX IT.
Good luck to myself.
-molly
I just don't talk, because I don't think anything that I say it worth saying, because no one ever listens to me.
I'm not very happy with how things are going right now.
School SUCKS. I think people think I'm stupid because of how I do in classes. But, frankley, I don't do good in anything that I don't like doing. Hence, not doing well in Chemistry, becuase of that very reason.
People need to learn to understand people. You'd be surprised the things that people deal with. You would never know. Someone could just be going on with life, and look like they're normal and fine, but they're not. They have extensive amounts of shit, emotional, personal that they have to deal with, while going to a fuck-whole school.
School honestly screws people up. I sware to god it does.
I hate how I treat people. I don't not liking people just because they annoy me. I don't think it's right, or moral, whatever that may mean.
I hate where I am. I am so stuck. I just need to figure things out. But it is so hard, because I really am just so messed up right now.
I have a hard time expressing myself, and just being who I am. I have a hard time finding friends that I'm comfortable with.
You want to know why I say sorry so much? Yeah, it's because I think maybe if I say sorry people will like me better, and want to be my friend and hang out with me more. Amazing, no?
I depise myself for the most part... and I don't like that. Because, I just want to know that I'm a good person, but I don't feel like I am..
I hate how I'm not comfortable with myself, and I think everyone hates me. I hate it so much. I want to change it. But, I don't know how.
I know why I think that. Because of my stupid dance teacher when I was younger. She used to yell at us all the time.
I'm so afraid of yelling. It makes me so scared.
I just want to be "normal" for a day. Just be careless and comfortable with myself. But, sadly that won't happen.. anytime soon.
It's not fair that I listen to everyone, and try to help them out. But, when it comes to myself, I don't feel like I can really tell anyone how I feel. I really feel alone so much. It sucks.
I WANT TO FIX IT.
Good luck to myself.
-molly