FUCK THIS PLACE!
serious. fuck this place. whats worth it here? whats worth it anywhere? not like anyone is here to cheer me up right? constant flaking. maybe im wrong. maybe its normal to flake on ur friends. i didnt think so. especially not when u need ur friends the most. but considering that all my friends constantly flake... maybe its just normal. maybe they are supposed to? maybe THATS really what friendship is.... not having time for each other. not caring about each other. not caring about anything. I tell my friends i really need them. i really need to talk to someone because im so confused with my mom being sick and everything and all i get is blank stares or 2 minute conversations. im so tired of ppl. the only 2 ppl who would talk to me for more then 2 minutes was smartie and paul. and i couldnt talk to them long because one is in wisconsin and one is in santa cruz. noone else to confide in. hmm. nothing left forever...