This is what I think...
My dad called me a loner one time. And he wasn't meaning it in a bad way, or being mean about it. It's just that I have that aura about me, and that attitude. I love to write and read. I love the arts and literatures. So my dads like "Go ahead and look up the word writer. You'll find that they exclude themselves from the world, they're loners. It's not a bad thing. It's just something I noticed about you."
So yeah, I had to agree with him. He's pretty much right. All my life, I've made friends here and there, but I always lose them due to the number of times I had to move. Then as I got older, I did't begin to have friends anymore. Just aquaintances. Lots of them. There are very, very few I can trust and call friends. I believe [and not hoping to offend anybody] that people are stupid. Seriously. I just can't handle people. I think I've come to realize that people can't always be there for you. And you can't always be there for everybody. There would be just too much to think about. To many problems to worry about, that aren't even yours, but are probably adding to your own list of problems anyway. So maybe thats why, when a loved one of yours dies, or you're extremely depressed, or out of nowhere you start crying and your "friends" worry and care about you, I think they just do it, to show that they care a little. They don't have all the time in the world to care about every single friend 100% of the time. So they show their sympathy at that moment. Do they really care? Who knows. Do they really care, even a little, at that moment? Who knows that either. I think everyone just needs people to care for them, even just a little. Maybe, thats how we get through life. Just times here and there where we need a little happy push or someone to care. Who said life was fair anyway?
Maybe, thats where love comes in. Your family is always there [in most cases] And your boyfriend/girlfriend. They should always be there for you because, well, they're more than a friend. They are what may be... well, a "perfect" type of person for you. Surely, when you want to be someone with the rest of your life, you have to look for those qualities that you want. Take a pinch of smart, a pinch of funny, a pinch of nice and all those things that make a personality and you got a perfect person. Lets say you hate smokers, yet you have friends who smoke. It doesn't bother you. But for your special someone, wouldn't you want a non-smoker? At least, most of the time I guess you would. Unless you really loved them for other reasons.It's your perfect friend. A friend that will always be there for you, not just for that moment when you really need someone. Its complicated :/
Well, I need at least one, or a few people I can trust 100%. And I do, thankfully. And its not just my boyfriend I'm talking about. I do have friends that are there for me. So, even if I am a loner, its kind of nice to know you have someone that cares about you. You know?
So yeah, I had to agree with him. He's pretty much right. All my life, I've made friends here and there, but I always lose them due to the number of times I had to move. Then as I got older, I did't begin to have friends anymore. Just aquaintances. Lots of them. There are very, very few I can trust and call friends. I believe [and not hoping to offend anybody] that people are stupid. Seriously. I just can't handle people. I think I've come to realize that people can't always be there for you. And you can't always be there for everybody. There would be just too much to think about. To many problems to worry about, that aren't even yours, but are probably adding to your own list of problems anyway. So maybe thats why, when a loved one of yours dies, or you're extremely depressed, or out of nowhere you start crying and your "friends" worry and care about you, I think they just do it, to show that they care a little. They don't have all the time in the world to care about every single friend 100% of the time. So they show their sympathy at that moment. Do they really care? Who knows. Do they really care, even a little, at that moment? Who knows that either. I think everyone just needs people to care for them, even just a little. Maybe, thats how we get through life. Just times here and there where we need a little happy push or someone to care. Who said life was fair anyway?
Maybe, thats where love comes in. Your family is always there [in most cases] And your boyfriend/girlfriend. They should always be there for you because, well, they're more than a friend. They are what may be... well, a "perfect" type of person for you. Surely, when you want to be someone with the rest of your life, you have to look for those qualities that you want. Take a pinch of smart, a pinch of funny, a pinch of nice and all those things that make a personality and you got a perfect person. Lets say you hate smokers, yet you have friends who smoke. It doesn't bother you. But for your special someone, wouldn't you want a non-smoker? At least, most of the time I guess you would. Unless you really loved them for other reasons.It's your perfect friend. A friend that will always be there for you, not just for that moment when you really need someone. Its complicated :/
Well, I need at least one, or a few people I can trust 100%. And I do, thankfully. And its not just my boyfriend I'm talking about. I do have friends that are there for me. So, even if I am a loner, its kind of nice to know you have someone that cares about you. You know?