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so where to start.
well yesterday, i was reflecting on myself and how i was freshman and sophmore year. and i realized how much i have changed. well i mean, im still my quircky self but still a lot has changed too. in some ways i like it, in others i dont.
im way more angry and im way more not hyper. liiiikee freshman year i woud pretty much spaz out and i could be pretty obnoxious. and now i cant even really remember the last time i spazed out. hmm maybe in may?!? i kind of miss being hyper. and now i hate obnoxious people. annnndd i think i matured a little too much cause i think everyone else is completly stupid and immature. but i guess thats how we are "suppose" to act at this age. but i cant really act that way. and another thing that ive been thinking about latley is my family. and i think its sad that i only have one grandparent and i never even met my moms grandparents so i missed out on getting spoiled by another set of grandparents lol. i really wish i met that. and i never got to meet one of my uncles that from what i hear was a really great guy that i would have liked. and then my dads 4th brother that i just found out about last year, i wish i could get to know him but its basically too late and now its just akward. and i cant believe they didnt tell me about him. and i wish i didnt hate my brother so much cause i cant really think of any good cute family stories ill be able to tell my kids and that makes me sad. and then i feel like the family failure since everyone in my family plays a sport now except me and they give me a hard time about it. everyones like oh well what the heck do u do all the time now that you dont play volleyball blah blah blah. and thats another thing that changed about me. i use to LLOOOVE volleyball and be obsessed with it and it was one of the happiest days of my life when i made sports performance and not to sound stuck up or anything but i could be sooo good by now if i stuck with it. but i guess i had a change of heart. along with everything else. i get bored of things too quickly. but one suprising thing to me is mine and brooks relationship. i never would have guessed id go out for a guy for even this long. but i like it =-) im happy.
this year has been so great.
a nice change from last year.
and im gonna be sad cause its almost over. oh poooo.
ha i remember i said how i was so sad last year when the year ended and i said how great 2005 was and how i doubt this year will be able to match up to it. haaaa. this year was WAAAY beyond last year. although it started off kind of rocky. now this year will be a hard year to follow up but ya never know.
i find it interesting and odd that i have been threatened twice to get my ass kicked in the last month when i am not one to start shit with people. ferr reaaaalll. i leave people alone until they mess with me first. oh well, i give myself props for out smarthing those dumb bitches. ha and last night i went to zero gravity with emily since i promised her id go with her a couple weeks ago and it was uhh an interesting experiance. the place isnt trashy, however,a lot of the people that go there are. well atleast 2 out of 3 of the guys i danced with were decent looking. although i must say im in no rush to go back there anytime soon. we only stayed for like an hour and a half. uhhh yeah. the enddd.
well yesterday, i was reflecting on myself and how i was freshman and sophmore year. and i realized how much i have changed. well i mean, im still my quircky self but still a lot has changed too. in some ways i like it, in others i dont.
im way more angry and im way more not hyper. liiiikee freshman year i woud pretty much spaz out and i could be pretty obnoxious. and now i cant even really remember the last time i spazed out. hmm maybe in may?!? i kind of miss being hyper. and now i hate obnoxious people. annnndd i think i matured a little too much cause i think everyone else is completly stupid and immature. but i guess thats how we are "suppose" to act at this age. but i cant really act that way. and another thing that ive been thinking about latley is my family. and i think its sad that i only have one grandparent and i never even met my moms grandparents so i missed out on getting spoiled by another set of grandparents lol. i really wish i met that. and i never got to meet one of my uncles that from what i hear was a really great guy that i would have liked. and then my dads 4th brother that i just found out about last year, i wish i could get to know him but its basically too late and now its just akward. and i cant believe they didnt tell me about him. and i wish i didnt hate my brother so much cause i cant really think of any good cute family stories ill be able to tell my kids and that makes me sad. and then i feel like the family failure since everyone in my family plays a sport now except me and they give me a hard time about it. everyones like oh well what the heck do u do all the time now that you dont play volleyball blah blah blah. and thats another thing that changed about me. i use to LLOOOVE volleyball and be obsessed with it and it was one of the happiest days of my life when i made sports performance and not to sound stuck up or anything but i could be sooo good by now if i stuck with it. but i guess i had a change of heart. along with everything else. i get bored of things too quickly. but one suprising thing to me is mine and brooks relationship. i never would have guessed id go out for a guy for even this long. but i like it =-) im happy.
this year has been so great.
a nice change from last year.
and im gonna be sad cause its almost over. oh poooo.
ha i remember i said how i was so sad last year when the year ended and i said how great 2005 was and how i doubt this year will be able to match up to it. haaaa. this year was WAAAY beyond last year. although it started off kind of rocky. now this year will be a hard year to follow up but ya never know.
i find it interesting and odd that i have been threatened twice to get my ass kicked in the last month when i am not one to start shit with people. ferr reaaaalll. i leave people alone until they mess with me first. oh well, i give myself props for out smarthing those dumb bitches. ha and last night i went to zero gravity with emily since i promised her id go with her a couple weeks ago and it was uhh an interesting experiance. the place isnt trashy, however,a lot of the people that go there are. well atleast 2 out of 3 of the guys i danced with were decent looking. although i must say im in no rush to go back there anytime soon. we only stayed for like an hour and a half. uhhh yeah. the enddd.