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Working with sister to photograph friend's wedding. Spending time with my one and only womb-mate.
Stillwater with Pat.
Sushi with Pat.
I've been feeling lucky. But it's only been when I'm not alone. Once I'm left I get to thinking about how far behind I am and how easily I get frustrated. And how I dread the 30th and the up coming 27th because I don't know how to deal with them and I just struggle through. With Spring, I'm already feeling like skipping class...work...and just sitting outside. And I think about how I can't choose a major because i don't know what I'm good at...I don't know what I REALLY enjoy because I get discouraged pretty easily. And work is just horrid lately...the whole high school talking behind my back thing is getting tired. I don't like hearing second hand stories about how someone thinks my hair is inappropriate for anyone wishing to represent Legacy Chocolates and how someone thinks I can't handle the assistant manager possition or how I wear ugly jeans and that in general I dress weird. And I'm tired of hearing complaints about any other employee. But really I've been feeling lucky...there are certain things that are just going well...I'm learning what certain things are supposed to be like and that thing in the past didn't have to be the way they were and sure I'm being vague but you don't need to know everything. I think it's just that you shouldn't always have to wonder and that sometimes your hand just needs to be held. What a difference. In general. know I'm happy. just lost.