why him...
when someone you know dies it makes you think... "what if that was me?" and of course no one ever gets to the bottom of it because you start to imagine really what would happen if it was you and you get fucking SCARED. then the obvious question comes up what'll happen when i die? and then the question that scares me shitless "what happens after i die? do i just stop being or is there more?" but if we knew any of these answers there would be no need to exsist, but there's no point anyways... to live is to die. and if we are only living to die, why spend a third of your life in school? why fight and kill? why spend you whole life trying to be better then someone else and to earn pieces of paper? when it will mean absolutely nothing in the end... like it matters what job you had! you are still gonna die. just as how many people you've been with or what you've done in your life in the end it all comes down to what evil way are you going to die.
why do we do the things we do? are we just in some viedo game and we don't even control ourselves? everything has no point... video games, movies, tv, sports none of them have a point... you play a video game to beat it, then what? you watch a movie for entertainment, then what? you watch tv to get into a
different world, then what? you play sports to win, season's over, then what?
everything has a then what at the end... thats life right?
casey shea said to me yesterday the old saying 'everything happens for a reason.'
what possible reason could there be to make thousands lifeless from a natural disaster. whats the reason to have someone take their own life? and what the FUCK is the reason to make andy drive into a tree?!? if anyone blames drugs and alcohol for andy's death, i'll follow that with another question/statement... drugs make you think the thoughts you are scared to think, if you blame them then you are blaming wanting to know the answers?
another side to this is all the stuff we are taught in school, matter cannot be created nor destroyed right? so when someone dies its just going to repeat, this time with a different face?
but then there are the religious ones that think they have the answers, right? there's either eternal heaven or eternal hell. what a choice... i have a question for the religious people... where the fuck is this "god" of yours?!? because if there is one he should be fucking fired.
why are we here? and where is here? is what i would like to know because if we are just living to die then let me die!
oooh another question to the religious question if there is a "heaven" why don't you just kill yourself right now to get to it. because if its all that its cracked up to be then you should WANT to die.
great now im even more depressed...
thanks to chemists for making anti-depressants
if you know any of the answers PLEASE tell me!
because as of right now i'm throwing in the towel on this "all mighty one" you call god
only thing i could find about andy's death...
About 5:40 p.m. Sunday, a man died after his car hit an oak tree on East Michigan Street in southeast Orlando between Conway Road and Dixie Belle Drive. Witnesses said the man, who was alone in the car, was speeding, said Orlando police Lt. Luis Tanzi. The driver's identity was withheld until relatives could be notified.
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