As Far As I Can See
I want to find someone who inspires me, and I want that to be the least of my issues.
More importantly, I want to be inspiring. I want to clean the world, inform people on social issues, enrich my mind, work and help people. But I'm stuck in a rut right now. I want to go to be well traveled. I want to be healthier. I want to be happier. I want to be somewhat tri lingual. I want to find time to read books of higher literary merit. I want to watch foreign and indie films. I don't want to judge people like I do. I don't want to talk bad. I want to be nicer, but not get walked all over. I want to listen with both ears. I don't want to buy anything but food (cheap at that) this year. I want to practically stop wearing make-up. I want to find something I'm passionate about. I want to wear my heart on my sleeve. I want my thinking philosophy to effect my everyday life. I don't want any of this for the image, I don't want it to be a facade.
And instead of wanting, it needs to just be. The enigma of that being I ought want to not want?
We'll see. I'm hopeing that when school starts I can start fresh. This weekend I'm taking a road trip to San Diego and then hopefully on Sunday I will go to the Huntington. I would love to get an internship there, or if not I could do the Richard Nixon, anything that could work. I'm going to sign up for green peace. I'm going to get involved either with or without Christa on cleaning up the world projects. I'm going to the farmers market the first week of school and I will see what projects I can get involved in. I will start everything for Italy. I'm going to do something with my life this year; I will grow and feel acomplished.
I don't know what this is supposed to stand for, I just want something to change; become a more rounded person of sorts I suppose.
More importantly, I want to be inspiring. I want to clean the world, inform people on social issues, enrich my mind, work and help people. But I'm stuck in a rut right now. I want to go to be well traveled. I want to be healthier. I want to be happier. I want to be somewhat tri lingual. I want to find time to read books of higher literary merit. I want to watch foreign and indie films. I don't want to judge people like I do. I don't want to talk bad. I want to be nicer, but not get walked all over. I want to listen with both ears. I don't want to buy anything but food (cheap at that) this year. I want to practically stop wearing make-up. I want to find something I'm passionate about. I want to wear my heart on my sleeve. I want my thinking philosophy to effect my everyday life. I don't want any of this for the image, I don't want it to be a facade.
And instead of wanting, it needs to just be. The enigma of that being I ought want to not want?
We'll see. I'm hopeing that when school starts I can start fresh. This weekend I'm taking a road trip to San Diego and then hopefully on Sunday I will go to the Huntington. I would love to get an internship there, or if not I could do the Richard Nixon, anything that could work. I'm going to sign up for green peace. I'm going to get involved either with or without Christa on cleaning up the world projects. I'm going to the farmers market the first week of school and I will see what projects I can get involved in. I will start everything for Italy. I'm going to do something with my life this year; I will grow and feel acomplished.
I don't know what this is supposed to stand for, I just want something to change; become a more rounded person of sorts I suppose.