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It takes a strong person to stand in the face of rejection time after time without breaking down completely. I build myself back up again and I go on living but it hurts. I'm not sure I'm strong enough to go through it again. Living with rejection, being reminded every day that you aren't good enough chisels away at something inside. It contributes to a whole mindset, makes you believe that you are a failure in every area of your life. I don't stand out in anything. I'm not extraordinary. These thoughts echo in my head. I used to believe that if I had the smallest chance I would take it without the slightest hesitation. I have my doubts now. But I still don't want to give up. I'm afraid of experiencing rejection again, but I'm just as afraid to give up something that I have loved for my whole life. It seems stupid, especially to my family and friends who believe nothing is more important than financial success. I realize the rewards would be few. But its about something bigger than that. Life is bigger than that.