I AIN'T NO GODDAMN SONOFABITCH!!!.....you better think about it baby...
I think one of the major reasons I've decided to revisit my Lj is because I've been having rushing feelings of nostalgia....high school nostalgia. I
want to start wearing my misfits shirt everyday, pumping out swears and, knocking things over, and living freely! I never cared if my actions got me kicked out of the house, or in trouble with the law. My view of things is broadening, but my spirit was getting more narrow. I didn't take shit, and I let you know it. Within a few years, I matured well, but not happily. Instead of feeling mature, I felt like a pushover, a mere shell of my former self. I took peoples shit, cried about it, cried about more, and felt sorry for myself afterward. It was almost maddening. how could I turn into a whiny pile of self-pity? ...i'm not going to go into the reason, but yes, just like for most...it involved love.
I believe the main reason that I'm feeling this way now, is because of not being able to complete a New Years resolution...(the resolution required two people to come to terms....the other party did not.) so I did some thinking and, I want to change my foolish ways.
...now I'm not going to break things, get arrested, and thrown out on the streets....I just wanna live it up a little, and become that which I once was....an asshole......kinda.....
its what I was good at......I am a bastard, ain't I?