You fucking nigglet.
I'm picking up Corey in about a half hour. My parents decided they needed to "go out to eat" for some ungodly reason before we can get him.. stupid fuckers.. anyway.. we're going to.. eh.. church. with my parents. becuase.. they'll like him more if he wants to go. and.. we go to a different thing then them.. some "high school" cult meeting. so.. they really dont know what the fuck we're doing. so.. we're not going to go into the cult meeting. we're going to talk. and drink coffee. like my brother and I USED to do.. before i got happy.. (aka.. loud and annoying) So yeah. Fun Fun. I didn't really get to talk to him much yesterday because Jo was around the whole time. But.. today will be different. we NEED to talk. so we will.
yesterday was alright though. i liked it. when i was at his house.. haha.. we were like.. in his room and i stole his first grade year book!! and. hehe.. of course looked through it. it was soo cute. he had comments of like. all of the girls he liked and everything. aww. i knew about lizzie. he had told me about her. but.. awww. there were like.. 3 other ones and.. aww. hes so cute. haha. i think thats why he didnt want to show me. becuase like.. the "comments" oh well. i thought it was cute. then we like.. played with his kitties. hehe. i want one. they're like.. small marios. its awesome. and the whole time we played some.. smack each others ass game EVERY chance we could. it was halarious. i got to sit on his back porch!!yay.. it was pretty. i wish it was at night though. well yeah.
after being at his house for a while.. we went to the movies. and say..... without a paddle? yeah.. that was.. interesting. i kind of liked it actually. it was so crowded.. so.. for the first time in a long time.. we didnt do anything sexual. then.. the car was just.. awesome. he was in the front and i was in the back. and like.. i just closed my eyes.. put my head agianst his seat. and.. let him touch my hand.. it felt so good to just.. be there.. in the dark. while i was tired. just. holding his hand. oh. we were listening to a song i really liked too so i was just.. totally happy.
aw. then when we got out of the car and he like.. walked me to the door.. he said something REALLY sweet. i was like. going to cry as he started walking away. i love that kid.. im so glad school has started and i get to see him pretty much everyday.
i felt so bad for cheryl becuase she could never see david. now that school started.. even though they dont go to the same school =( they have still seen each other a lot more in the past like.. 2 weeks than they did before. this could be a good thing.. =)
eehhh. my mom should be home soon damnit..i want to see that kid.
i wrote like.. a thing.. about 5 people last night in my actual notebook. it was like.. a page dedicated to each of them.. and.. i think im going to move it into here. im really not sure why. it just... seems like a good idea...seems like something i should want people to see..its mainly about 2 things.. how the people have helped me.. and how i've hurt them. how im sorry.. i dont know what my point was i was just.. in the mood to actually take time and acknowledge that i once cared.. hard to believe. but i did..
i want to meet dani. i want to go to shelbys.. but.. eh.. corey.. yeah. i wonder how long hes staying. maybe i can go there and stop by before dani leaves.. its only 10 30.. he'll be there for a while.. right? i hope. anyway.. im going to go like.. get pretty.. and.. fix my hair. im tired of looking like this.. i have to for school. i actually have time now.. why am i sitting here doing this?
fuucckkk.. >>Love you Corey<<
>>And Tricia.. Because.. She talked to me<<
yesterday was alright though. i liked it. when i was at his house.. haha.. we were like.. in his room and i stole his first grade year book!! and. hehe.. of course looked through it. it was soo cute. he had comments of like. all of the girls he liked and everything. aww. i knew about lizzie. he had told me about her. but.. awww. there were like.. 3 other ones and.. aww. hes so cute. haha. i think thats why he didnt want to show me. becuase like.. the "comments" oh well. i thought it was cute. then we like.. played with his kitties. hehe. i want one. they're like.. small marios. its awesome. and the whole time we played some.. smack each others ass game EVERY chance we could. it was halarious. i got to sit on his back porch!!yay.. it was pretty. i wish it was at night though. well yeah.
after being at his house for a while.. we went to the movies. and say..... without a paddle? yeah.. that was.. interesting. i kind of liked it actually. it was so crowded.. so.. for the first time in a long time.. we didnt do anything sexual. then.. the car was just.. awesome. he was in the front and i was in the back. and like.. i just closed my eyes.. put my head agianst his seat. and.. let him touch my hand.. it felt so good to just.. be there.. in the dark. while i was tired. just. holding his hand. oh. we were listening to a song i really liked too so i was just.. totally happy.
aw. then when we got out of the car and he like.. walked me to the door.. he said something REALLY sweet. i was like. going to cry as he started walking away. i love that kid.. im so glad school has started and i get to see him pretty much everyday.
i felt so bad for cheryl becuase she could never see david. now that school started.. even though they dont go to the same school =( they have still seen each other a lot more in the past like.. 2 weeks than they did before. this could be a good thing.. =)
eehhh. my mom should be home soon damnit..i want to see that kid.
i wrote like.. a thing.. about 5 people last night in my actual notebook. it was like.. a page dedicated to each of them.. and.. i think im going to move it into here. im really not sure why. it just... seems like a good idea...seems like something i should want people to see..its mainly about 2 things.. how the people have helped me.. and how i've hurt them. how im sorry.. i dont know what my point was i was just.. in the mood to actually take time and acknowledge that i once cared.. hard to believe. but i did..
i want to meet dani. i want to go to shelbys.. but.. eh.. corey.. yeah. i wonder how long hes staying. maybe i can go there and stop by before dani leaves.. its only 10 30.. he'll be there for a while.. right? i hope. anyway.. im going to go like.. get pretty.. and.. fix my hair. im tired of looking like this.. i have to for school. i actually have time now.. why am i sitting here doing this?
fuucckkk.. >>Love you Corey<<
>>And Tricia.. Because.. She talked to me<<