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There is something i have been keeping to myself for a couple days. So i appaligize to everyone that I have been w/e toward. What I have been hiding is that yesterday I found out my grandfather was in the hospital. He has been sick for a little time now and he new it but never did anything to help the pain but drink it away. So now he is in the hospital and my mom just told me that he has cancer to the luver,sorpsis of the liver, and a lot of other complications. I am so devistated right now. I dont know if it really has hit me yeat but I think it is going to very soon. Nevermind that now it has. I have never had a family member die I dont ever know what to feel,think,do it is jsut all new to me. The docter says that all of this is because of his drinking and there is nothing they can do. THey say it only looks like we have 2 to 3 weeks left with him. I really feel so bad for jimmy. I mean it is his father, if this was my father i ould flip. So now i know losing someone really feels like. and the bad part is that docters say we could have stoped this only if he would have stoped drinking.