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Again, Im so frustrated. Im so impatient. I'm ashamed. I'm waiting again, I hate to wait. I hate to wait! My god, can't they understand this is what frustrates me. I sit here waiting for something that'll never come; but, I wait because you said it would. Why I believe you, I don't know. Why don't I just let it go and not keep wanting some time from you, I don't know. Sometimes I think I overreact in these situations. Am I? Again I don't know. I try not to show my feelings about it, because I don't want to cause something unnecessary. Grr... I can't breathe. I'm hurting, I'm tired. I'm waiting and I hate it. I'm trying to breathe, but I can't. I also try to stay awake, but I don't think I can. I woke up early today anticipating that something would happen, but of course it didn't. Well not yet, and I don't think it will. No it won't, I can tell. Oh my head hurts, because I can't breathe. Maybe I should lay down and watch this subtitled movie we rented, or read my book. Or maybe, I can just sit around and bitch and be pissed off at you until I talk to you and then act cool. Only because that's what I've been doing lately and it's fucking lame. So yeah I guess I stop going on about this shit, because maybe it doesn't matter anyway.
-Julia
-Julia