happily ever after.... yeah right
It takes too much effort to be so... happy. It's not that I don't care about meeting new people at uni but you know you're never going to spend time with them outside of uni either >.> I don't see them becoming close to me, in fact I won't let anybody come close. If it's of the flesh then that depends on whether I'm attracted to you or not but of the extreme closeness? Forget it. You wonder why I meet nice guys? Well you can have them... I don't care at this rate.
Nobody gets it.
Nobody understands me.
And this frickin essay is getting nowhere *sad*
And I was reading my yrbook and dammit... A COMPUTER GEEK... who still loves you. dammit dammit dammit... My defences are paper thin. All it takes is one shot and you'll kill me. In fact kill me. Do it quick so I can get away from this self perpetuated hell. I want nothing. I used to want a lot of things but now I'm forced to be content with nothing or I just don't feel things like I used to...
but a DARK CHILD... who still loves you.
for how long though...
I'll be looking forward to the day when your words, your voice, your touch or your look has no effect on me anymore.
Nobody gets it.
Nobody understands me.
And this frickin essay is getting nowhere *sad*
And I was reading my yrbook and dammit... A COMPUTER GEEK... who still loves you. dammit dammit dammit... My defences are paper thin. All it takes is one shot and you'll kill me. In fact kill me. Do it quick so I can get away from this self perpetuated hell. I want nothing. I used to want a lot of things but now I'm forced to be content with nothing or I just don't feel things like I used to...
but a DARK CHILD... who still loves you.
for how long though...
I'll be looking forward to the day when your words, your voice, your touch or your look has no effect on me anymore.