There are not enough distractions in the world
I want to be an a/ve Mum, grow our family, have a baby in the house, have a sibling for L, more than almost my whole being. It's within the first few thoughts when I wake up, absolutely one of the last when I go to bed. An hour may pass in a day when I don't think about it, but not two. It's at the back of my mind in most conversations. It's in the quiet of my day and there's nothing to do for it but wait. Wait and hope. My hope is slowly slipping away, but I wait, I am not looking forward to the end of the year, as I worry so much that we will have to move on and I am unsure how I would do that. Just get to Easter - at least this year I can enjoy the long weekend :)