thoughts and discussions
to shannon. "umm...yes i feel very much the same, just thinking about him makes me happy, i miss him, and i just think he is wonderful and exactly the kind of person i want in my life, and i am trying to contain my emotions a bit coz u know its so difficult with the distance, and i dont want to be sad about it and ruin it by being sad coz thats just silly im just v scared about relationships at the moment so it is kinda scary and im kinda still waiting for the other shoe to drop from his end of things, but i mean he got up early today to go and find a phone box he'd seen down the coast in the middle of no where to call me coz i hadnt heard from him since sunday and he told me he was thinking bout me all the time so that was good : ) im not telling too many ppl here, playing it down a lot to protect myself, only about 2 of my good friends know here and my parents (who LOVE him)"