Blue Lights and Parked Cars
I didn't realize things had gotten this bad. I've decided to take the next month and reevaluate what I want out of college. I'm not sure of the direction I am taking, I feel I was pushed into something I'm terrible at. What I really want to do...education would just enhance and make me slighty more appealing (only slightly). I'm getting a better education talking to and meeting new people. I'm going to school next semester to learn about what I want and for the first time I will actually work for it. If I finish it still unsure I will take the nest semester off and volunteer...something I've always wanted to do but I've been told I couldn't, because my mother says it's beneath me. That in it's self is funny because to her I am the most disgusting stupid and worthless person on the planet...so what would be beneath me? I'm jealous of people like Danny who want to make a life of helping people. I wish I had that big of a heart. I want to be successful to help people...my friends, my family (those who deserve it) and people I've never met.