just the beginning...
so, what to do? where to go from here? what the hell am i doing with my life? nothing. im floating. my world in not challenging whatsoever. challenge me! excite me! something or somebody find me goddammit and fucking push me on the path. im stuck in the grass...
its not that im unhappy....im not sad. im not angry. im not depressed. right now im not sure if there is a word to describe how i feel. everyday has been different. some days harder than others. overall, good though.
the hardest part to deal with i guess is the change. things are different. things are missing...(and are missed). ive learned to deal with it. im ruined i know. its not me anymore. it will never be. too many things have been said...have been changed...my world was shaken.
motivation where are you? passion? drive? all absent.
fuck.
i just wanna have fun.
its not that im unhappy....im not sad. im not angry. im not depressed. right now im not sure if there is a word to describe how i feel. everyday has been different. some days harder than others. overall, good though.
the hardest part to deal with i guess is the change. things are different. things are missing...(and are missed). ive learned to deal with it. im ruined i know. its not me anymore. it will never be. too many things have been said...have been changed...my world was shaken.
motivation where are you? passion? drive? all absent.
fuck.
i just wanna have fun.