Prom, SAT's, and now everything else
First off, Prom was amazing. I had so much fun just like, feeling accepted with people. I know that may sound wicked dorky, but I loved our little group at Prom. Mikala looked absolutely beautiful in her dress, and thats I think what I'll take away from my Junior Prom.
Second- SAT's. hell. pure hell. never take them.
Today- Today was a very low day for me. I think once a month I just have one day where I feel so much crap that the rest of my month is awesome. Kurt is going to ask Liz out either today or tomorrow, and that news was such a like emotional epiphany for me. Liz has been my best friend for a long time, and we've always kinda had a few things in common- one of them was being single and being able to relate to eachother on that level. I don't want anybody to take this the wrong way at all, and I think Liz and Kurt are great for eachother, and I wish them all the luck in the world. Its just, like when I saw Tina's face light up talking about it, it made me so depressed that no one has ever made that kind of excitement over me. I know this sounds a lot like self-pity, but I really feel like I've earned the right for it. I've never had a girlfriend before, and thats seriously not ok with me anymore. Why can't I get a girlfriend? I mean, seriously, if someone can answer this, I am all ears. I refuse to admit that I am THAT ugly that I can't find someone who I like that likes me back. Seriously, if thats the reason, someone tell me. I also think it could be the fact that I am pretty much good friends with every girl my age. Well, screw that, if I am friends with someone I like, then that should just be a plus for the relationship. Ugh, seriously. Screw this. I wanna leave DR and just go for college. I HATE being the weirdo who has NOTHING to talk about after Prom. I HATE when I am not invited to a party because I'm the ONLY ONE without a girlfriend. I HATE this entire situation. UGH....
Second- SAT's. hell. pure hell. never take them.
Today- Today was a very low day for me. I think once a month I just have one day where I feel so much crap that the rest of my month is awesome. Kurt is going to ask Liz out either today or tomorrow, and that news was such a like emotional epiphany for me. Liz has been my best friend for a long time, and we've always kinda had a few things in common- one of them was being single and being able to relate to eachother on that level. I don't want anybody to take this the wrong way at all, and I think Liz and Kurt are great for eachother, and I wish them all the luck in the world. Its just, like when I saw Tina's face light up talking about it, it made me so depressed that no one has ever made that kind of excitement over me. I know this sounds a lot like self-pity, but I really feel like I've earned the right for it. I've never had a girlfriend before, and thats seriously not ok with me anymore. Why can't I get a girlfriend? I mean, seriously, if someone can answer this, I am all ears. I refuse to admit that I am THAT ugly that I can't find someone who I like that likes me back. Seriously, if thats the reason, someone tell me. I also think it could be the fact that I am pretty much good friends with every girl my age. Well, screw that, if I am friends with someone I like, then that should just be a plus for the relationship. Ugh, seriously. Screw this. I wanna leave DR and just go for college. I HATE being the weirdo who has NOTHING to talk about after Prom. I HATE when I am not invited to a party because I'm the ONLY ONE without a girlfriend. I HATE this entire situation. UGH....