cater to the heart because its fun

[shotmefast]

anything interesting go on? hmm not really.
its been pretty much the same.
im searching for something tonight and i dont know why.
im not sure exactly what it is.
i have everything i want.
but theres something missing.
when i find it...well hell i dont know.
i am the happiest ive ever been.
but tonight im not in a good mood.
i had to work today.
im tired of working.
but i need money
i think im missin a certain affection.
i want to lay down and think abotu all the things ive been through.
but if i do i might cry.
in reality i think i miss my mom.
i need that someone.
but i dont know why i am missin her now.
ive gone my whole life with out her...
so why does it matter now?
i want to run away from these thoughts right now but i cant.
im sad.
this isnt good.
i dont want to work tomorrow.
im beat from working already.
i havent worked there but a month.
maybe.

on a better note.
last night was fun.
me and dustin fought.
it was fun.
i spent the night over there with jeremy.

when you believe.

im goin to bed.
peace.