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isn't it fitting that i cant quite find any words that describe how i feel. i'm at such an amazingly awesome time in my life right now, amazingly important and open and filled with endless possibilities. and yet amidst it all i can't help but feel lonelier than ever.
i've never said "it's not you, it's me" to anybody because you only say that when it is actually the other person. i am who i am and i have accepted my oddities and weirdness as among some of my very favorite things about myself. but for one reason or another or two or three nobody else can quite see me as SOMEBODY. somebody that matters more than the other people in the room or in their lives or in their past or in their future.
and i cant pretend that it doesnt hurt because all i can feel sometimes is a great big hole that has never been filled and if conventional logical empirical wisdom prevails, if i have not met anybody in nearly 21 years that wants to be a part of my life and let me into theirs
when on earth will i?
i've never said "it's not you, it's me" to anybody because you only say that when it is actually the other person. i am who i am and i have accepted my oddities and weirdness as among some of my very favorite things about myself. but for one reason or another or two or three nobody else can quite see me as SOMEBODY. somebody that matters more than the other people in the room or in their lives or in their past or in their future.
and i cant pretend that it doesnt hurt because all i can feel sometimes is a great big hole that has never been filled and if conventional logical empirical wisdom prevails, if i have not met anybody in nearly 21 years that wants to be a part of my life and let me into theirs
when on earth will i?