FML

[shotgunsymphony]

I started going out with this girl that was my friend for a really long time and its been almost a month. I can't really place my finger on what exactly it is but something just feels off about it. I thought it was maybe the fact that she had been my friend for 10 plus years but I don't really think thats what it is. One thing that was been brought up to my attention rather bluntly is the fact that she is super fucking jealous. Erika came over for a bit and she just about flipped her lid. I don't know if I can be with someone that isn't comfortable enough with themselves or isn't trusting enough to pull some bullshit like that. It's been a few days and I've been trying to let it go and have for the most part. She apologized and it sounds sincere and all but I'm 90 percent certain that this is something that will happen again in the near future and I don't know if I really want to deal with that. I feel like I've got one foot out the door already. It's also coming across as if she's a little bit too into me.....I don't know if thats a genuine concern of if its just the fact that I've felt so unwanted for so long that I'm fucking myself up in the head about it. I'm gonna see her in the next few days, I've been seeing her for just about everyday so I think this will help clear my mind a little bit more and then take it from there.

On a totally unrelated note my band is almost done with our album. Thank fucking god. If you want to listen to it then go to www.myspace.com/brisbymusic