my life without you..

[shotgun_sunset]

today was...

I can't describe it..
Leah crying in the bathroom at the church today got me down bad..for once in my life I felt like I couldn't do anything to help.

As a sat in the church listening to Brandons song that him and some people made I felt content with my life once more because of a death..

because in some way knowing that I have my life makes me happy..

that I have the friends I have and the family I have and that some how I knew I was going to make it through..

At any given time if I passed away I would be okay with that because in my option I think I have done a lot in my life.
I would want my friend to be okay with that too..I would want them to keep their head up and say "every little thing is gonna be alright"..because thats what I want to happen..

I love every single person I have come across in my life every single one of them whether I said at one point in time I hated them I didn't mean it because in someway or another every person I have come across has shaped my life..
and I love the person I have become.

so thanks to all of you for everything I am today.