FUCK IT!!!!!!!!!!
Damn, I feel like shit.. i want to punch the shit out of the emo kids that sit in front of me... dammit why do i feel so bad... i just want to fucking kill sombody. I havent talked to lucy in a couple of days.. i only saw her for an hour on saturday.. and i cant wait to talk to her again... i think she is probaly going to get her tounge pirced this week end.. I dont know... her friend is going to do it..and i dont fucking trust her friend. in fact i fucking cant stand her even though i never talked to her..and she might try coke this week end..but i dont know how i would take that.. im trying to act like it dosent bother me but it does.. i might get fucking pissed but oh well, we'll see what happens... but enough of that i fucking hate school.. i failed every class last semester... and now im desperatly trying to make up classes..i have to take two credit by exams. i have the after school dropout prevention shit..i dont know fuck it.. yes my new motto..fuck it.. im not going to let anything bother me no more.. im just not going to give a fuck about anything... lucy could do what ever the fuck she wants.... i dont fucking care about school anymore... my parents screw them... where i live fuck it i dont care.....fuck it fuck everything i dont need it... i dont need anything.. the only thing i feel like i fucking need to live. is lucy.. and slowly i feel like im losing her.. idont know why though...you know if i lose her that would be the last straw... i would ...i would.. fuck it ...it dosent matter ..... I LOVE her..i fucking love her.. and i never wanted to fall in love but fuck it.. it happend.... you know what im just going to go to sleep..i dont need to think about shit right now............................................FUCK IT!!!!!!!!!!!