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Mar 21, 2005 17:25

I know this is strange -- Ange and I are dating. There's no reason to think it wouldn't be strange. Heck, anytime any of us have had a significant other, whether inside our circle of friends or not, dynamics seem to shift. The person in a relationship more often than not gets the shaft. In some cases I feel the reason was because of seclusion...that the couple was so co-dependant they made no effort toward being involved with friends. These relationships ended, whether in a few weeks or a little over a year. However, I am curious as to wonder why Ange and I both feel like strangers in a circle of friends we vowed would always be family.
I want to challenge us all to search our own hearts, if this means anything to you. Why does this seem strange, if at all? Are we just growing up? Are we falling into the habit of making relationships akward even if they may not be? I don't know, so let's search. Ange and I definitely feel that our relationship is in line with what God has for us, and that's exciting. Yet if our closest friends can't get excited about it, or fully accept it, it makes for distant conversation and what feels like unwanted company.
I'm not trying to play some sort of holier-than-thou game. I know I have missed phone calls and dropped tha ball on an occasion or two, as well as Ange. But even after making it a priority to hang out with some of our closest friends, things still felt really unnatural. I don't want unnatural, especially because it is usually so natural to chill with people that feel like my brothers and sisters.

I love you guys. Please, don't take offense. I just don't want this part of my life to go unchecked.

Love, Ben.
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