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ok. i dont usually put personal things in here.
but. kill me now. please.
i hate certain people. alot. and i have to live with them.
kill me or kill them. im too scared.
i am soo frustrated right now.
people really care about me.
andre: what if i killed myself right now????
mom: what do you want me to do about it?....im at work...
youre a real mom. with real words. thanks for saying that.
it meant alot to me.
why do i have water in my eyes?!?!.....i hate this stuff. alot.
i hate yelling. and arguing. and people. and apathy.
maybe if you said something better than that. i wouldnt feel this way.
maybe if you would intervene and not sit his sidelines.
my sidelines has no coach. it doesnt even have players.
it has me. and a bench. im just a benchwarmer to you.
thats all mom. just a benchwarmer.
i was sooo mad. i even said "bullshit". to my mom.
and i never have cursed to her in my life.
i hope she remembers that for the next time she says something.
because it will be just "bullshit". and i wont be able to do anything.
trivial matters should stay trivial. do NOT yell at me for that. asshole.
i hate you.
(this was not intended towards my mom. but someone i share a room with.)
i thought you were suppose to be something to look up to.
well i look down on you. yelling is the lowest form of speaking.
goodnight.
but. kill me now. please.
i hate certain people. alot. and i have to live with them.
kill me or kill them. im too scared.
i am soo frustrated right now.
people really care about me.
andre: what if i killed myself right now????
mom: what do you want me to do about it?....im at work...
youre a real mom. with real words. thanks for saying that.
it meant alot to me.
why do i have water in my eyes?!?!.....i hate this stuff. alot.
i hate yelling. and arguing. and people. and apathy.
maybe if you said something better than that. i wouldnt feel this way.
maybe if you would intervene and not sit his sidelines.
my sidelines has no coach. it doesnt even have players.
it has me. and a bench. im just a benchwarmer to you.
thats all mom. just a benchwarmer.
i was sooo mad. i even said "bullshit". to my mom.
and i never have cursed to her in my life.
i hope she remembers that for the next time she says something.
because it will be just "bullshit". and i wont be able to do anything.
trivial matters should stay trivial. do NOT yell at me for that. asshole.
i hate you.
(this was not intended towards my mom. but someone i share a room with.)
i thought you were suppose to be something to look up to.
well i look down on you. yelling is the lowest form of speaking.
goodnight.