Forever Love
So I was just thinking, maybe I have some sort of mild bi polar or something. My feelings can change quite quickly. I might go from thinking i'm so loved to thinking what the heck is going on, to this aint so bad. Perhaps this is good, lets me understand Kate a little better. I want to have a conversation about it to her, she would have lots of insight and shes been looking to share insight to the world.
Right now, I guess i'm feeling that this ain’t so bad. Theres a girl that likes me, maybe not at this exact moment, but in general she likes me. Shes going through a lot of stuff, figuring herself out, I feel very confident she’s going to figure me out and come my way forever. Its a matter of faith...and trust from a close "source". Still feels tough at times, I feel like i'm living 50 first dates. Every day I have to make her fall in love with me, because for some reason she doesn’t remember how great it was with me just a few hours before. I think thats why ive always hated romantic hallmark holidays, guys treat woman like crap the whole year but do something sweet 3 days a year and everything is great. I try to be romantic everyday of the year but usually suck on holidays because its so much pressure to think up something great when I don’t work like that. Other guys win though, love throughout the year isn’t appreciated as much as make up sex I guess. If you ignore her, if you say yull see her but don’t even bother calling her... only on your time, when you’ve got nothing better to do... she would probably drop everything and be whisked away... does she remember me? Valentines day should really be my day. lol... A day for me to be loved and thought of, like that’ll happen... would be a dream though…I’m such a girl... I kind of like making you love me everyday, hope one day yull do it for me...hmmm... I was sad because once again she didnt want to see me after something great happened, but now that I think about it she said something great as well. If it turns out the way she said, ill have gone 5 days without seeing her, kind of distressing thinking that will have been the longest we have been apart in the last month. But she said something like eat, sleep, work, sleep, work, eat, sleep, see Chris. Must mean something special that shes already put me down for the future. I'm very mad at her work, for making her be there like an ENTIRE DAY, which should be illegal and probably is! Ill come visit her, she likes it when I do that. I just hope this time someone doesn’t stop by and wont leave me alone! All I want to do is talk to a Kate! DUH! heh, I love you Kate. Your my favorite person, i'm here for you forever.
Right now, I guess i'm feeling that this ain’t so bad. Theres a girl that likes me, maybe not at this exact moment, but in general she likes me. Shes going through a lot of stuff, figuring herself out, I feel very confident she’s going to figure me out and come my way forever. Its a matter of faith...and trust from a close "source". Still feels tough at times, I feel like i'm living 50 first dates. Every day I have to make her fall in love with me, because for some reason she doesn’t remember how great it was with me just a few hours before. I think thats why ive always hated romantic hallmark holidays, guys treat woman like crap the whole year but do something sweet 3 days a year and everything is great. I try to be romantic everyday of the year but usually suck on holidays because its so much pressure to think up something great when I don’t work like that. Other guys win though, love throughout the year isn’t appreciated as much as make up sex I guess. If you ignore her, if you say yull see her but don’t even bother calling her... only on your time, when you’ve got nothing better to do... she would probably drop everything and be whisked away... does she remember me? Valentines day should really be my day. lol... A day for me to be loved and thought of, like that’ll happen... would be a dream though…I’m such a girl... I kind of like making you love me everyday, hope one day yull do it for me...hmmm... I was sad because once again she didnt want to see me after something great happened, but now that I think about it she said something great as well. If it turns out the way she said, ill have gone 5 days without seeing her, kind of distressing thinking that will have been the longest we have been apart in the last month. But she said something like eat, sleep, work, sleep, work, eat, sleep, see Chris. Must mean something special that shes already put me down for the future. I'm very mad at her work, for making her be there like an ENTIRE DAY, which should be illegal and probably is! Ill come visit her, she likes it when I do that. I just hope this time someone doesn’t stop by and wont leave me alone! All I want to do is talk to a Kate! DUH! heh, I love you Kate. Your my favorite person, i'm here for you forever.