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Tonight I watched Moulin Rouge. I dont know if any of you have ever seen it, but it is this incredibly beautiful, yet very tragic, romantic love story. It made me so so very lonely. Most of the time, I am totally fine.. loving life and taking in every minute as if it were my last. However, I have found myself becoming very lonely lately. I have had a boyfriend practically my whole life.. Now I know I can survive without one and, a lot of the time, I am much happier with the knowledge that I am a free woman. I am able to flirt and giggle my brains out whenever I want. Its just not very satisfying right now. For the last 6 months I have loved it, but now I find myself craving the touch of a wonderful guy who truly cares about me and wants to be with me, just like I want to be with him. I want to fall in love again. I want so badly to feel that again. Im scared though that im not able to love and trust again. Is that possible? I hope not. Now, with college starting in the fall I can only hope for all that I desire.
Now, what to do until then....
Now, what to do until then....