Well...
Hey guys...
Well, so I'm sitting here now and I really don't know where to begin. Earlier this week, I know... I KNOW I was absolutely just the most horrible person in the world. And I know I can't take back the things I said or the way I acted, but I can apologize, because not only did my bad temper show incredibly, it also seemed to cause people I love more than anything to love me a little less.
I just really have a history of bad tempers and depression and I guess this one got a little out of hand, for those who witnessed it...I'm sorry. I go through phases where I get really pissed and frustrated at myself and I take it out on other people. I know what you're thinking and it's true: I'm not the only one who has these so-called phases so why should I be an exception? Well, I guess I haven't learned how to handle it as well as most people and that's my fault. But I'll leave it there because I don't really want to get much more personal than that. And the more I talk, the more you'll believe it all to be bullshit.
I'm not trying to make up excuses for the way I acted or trying to make you erase this week and see me as the Nikki you knew before... so I don't really know what else I can say...I know that your actions have consequences, but I should have known that beforehand. I'm sorry and that's all I can really say.
I just hope that you don't think any less of me... but that's your call. And I hope that someday, things can go back the way they were... but that's up to you and I'll be here, ready for anything- positive or negative.
Love ya, always will... (miss you too),
Nik
Well, so I'm sitting here now and I really don't know where to begin. Earlier this week, I know... I KNOW I was absolutely just the most horrible person in the world. And I know I can't take back the things I said or the way I acted, but I can apologize, because not only did my bad temper show incredibly, it also seemed to cause people I love more than anything to love me a little less.
I just really have a history of bad tempers and depression and I guess this one got a little out of hand, for those who witnessed it...I'm sorry. I go through phases where I get really pissed and frustrated at myself and I take it out on other people. I know what you're thinking and it's true: I'm not the only one who has these so-called phases so why should I be an exception? Well, I guess I haven't learned how to handle it as well as most people and that's my fault. But I'll leave it there because I don't really want to get much more personal than that. And the more I talk, the more you'll believe it all to be bullshit.
I'm not trying to make up excuses for the way I acted or trying to make you erase this week and see me as the Nikki you knew before... so I don't really know what else I can say...I know that your actions have consequences, but I should have known that beforehand. I'm sorry and that's all I can really say.
I just hope that you don't think any less of me... but that's your call. And I hope that someday, things can go back the way they were... but that's up to you and I'll be here, ready for anything- positive or negative.
Love ya, always will... (miss you too),
Nik