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i have never been in such a hodgepode. i am so sad and angry and lonely and there isn't a thing i can do about it. except let go. anger is a terrible thing to hold on to, that's how hate gets started. and i do not want to be like that kind of person...who is afraid and hates everything...and i am alone. there is no two ways about that...embrace it...and yes i love you...in what way, who knows. i have loved you since the moment i saw you and met you. you know that i think. i'm sure you do. i know you know i breathe for you. you know you are the glue that holds me together. you are the best friend ever, and one of the only people i can count on. take that for what it is worth.
just learn to hold on let go of what is important. i have tried for so long to put on a smile and be braze and not care what people don't think about me, i do. and even if they don't matter, or what they think isn't true hurts just the same. and that just makes me human. but how long is it before i become bitter and hopeless? i keep hoping this makes me a stronger better person. that when i get where i am going, i can tell people that it doesn't matter and you WILL show people you will come out on top.
some days it doesn't feel like it.
just learn to hold on let go of what is important. i have tried for so long to put on a smile and be braze and not care what people don't think about me, i do. and even if they don't matter, or what they think isn't true hurts just the same. and that just makes me human. but how long is it before i become bitter and hopeless? i keep hoping this makes me a stronger better person. that when i get where i am going, i can tell people that it doesn't matter and you WILL show people you will come out on top.
some days it doesn't feel like it.