On this rollor coast of life,
Well then, to who reads my journals, Im sorry I havent updated in a while. Every time I come on to lj.. I cant think of anything to type. Most time I have something to say, but not sure if its important enough to say. I guess I should try anyway.
so this roller coaster of life has done another loop. It kinda made me fall deep this time. I dont exactly want to say what happend.. but I know it touched me deep down. It made me hit rock bottem with my soal. I dont know if anyone of u have got so far down where it seems like theres nothing more. But that was me about a week or so ago. It was a moment where it was only me and the creater. In which I kind of put on the back burner for some stupid reason. Anyway, I finally got to the point I Pleaded to god to help. That I open my heart to him again. I wanted help, I wanted to feel his love again. The moment after.. The sun came from out of the cloud (literly cuz I was out side hiding) and the sun started warming me up. It was like warming the whole exsistence of me. Not must my body but my spirit, soal and my heart. I finally felt closer. I had forgotten how safe i felt with god. HOw protectedd i felt.
So now I am trying to hear gods guidence. Right now I dont understand where Im to go. All I know is that his asking me to find him again. To become part of him again. I know that is what I must do. And People.. dont worry, im not going to be come a precher and force anything on my friends and loved ones. This is my journey that Im sharing with you. My experience. So dont worry. :)
So I guess To conclude, Im starting to realize that this rollercoaster ride of life is suppoosed to be exciting. I should learn and experience everything to learn and experience. That even if I dont have physical friends always around me I have god.. and I have his angels.
Thanks God.
Peace out.
so this roller coaster of life has done another loop. It kinda made me fall deep this time. I dont exactly want to say what happend.. but I know it touched me deep down. It made me hit rock bottem with my soal. I dont know if anyone of u have got so far down where it seems like theres nothing more. But that was me about a week or so ago. It was a moment where it was only me and the creater. In which I kind of put on the back burner for some stupid reason. Anyway, I finally got to the point I Pleaded to god to help. That I open my heart to him again. I wanted help, I wanted to feel his love again. The moment after.. The sun came from out of the cloud (literly cuz I was out side hiding) and the sun started warming me up. It was like warming the whole exsistence of me. Not must my body but my spirit, soal and my heart. I finally felt closer. I had forgotten how safe i felt with god. HOw protectedd i felt.
So now I am trying to hear gods guidence. Right now I dont understand where Im to go. All I know is that his asking me to find him again. To become part of him again. I know that is what I must do. And People.. dont worry, im not going to be come a precher and force anything on my friends and loved ones. This is my journey that Im sharing with you. My experience. So dont worry. :)
So I guess To conclude, Im starting to realize that this rollercoaster ride of life is suppoosed to be exciting. I should learn and experience everything to learn and experience. That even if I dont have physical friends always around me I have god.. and I have his angels.
Thanks God.
Peace out.