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So this week is Horrible! my car is broken so i have been using my wonderful roommates cars to get to work! then the kid i am seeing is freaking out that i want him to tell me he loves me or something. which i DON"T not for a long time at least. then he tells me that he needs to be friends with a girl before he dates her..... ok thats a normal thing. so then he tells me that we are and exclusive couple but not boyfriend or girlfriend and that he is cutting sex out of our relationship! Which BTW is AMAZING(for those of you that read this if that was to much info sorry) so we are not dating anyone else and we are not titled. which is totaly fine but i liked the sex! he said it was getting to emotional for us if we weren't BF/GF. then he tells me that he only calls someone his GF if he is in love with them. for me falling in love with some one takes a while. and i am not going to sit around for months until he makes up his mind. I mean i do really like him and i want to be his GF i just wish he would stop freaking out and tell me what really is going on. Telling me that he can see us going really far is a good thing but not if he can't step it up soon. I will leave and find someone new someone that wants to be with me now. we have been only seeing each other for like a month but still to have though about all this now! and not telling me! what the hell!
i love hanging out with him and seeing him but i can't just be friends with him. i act completely different with my "guys friends" then i do with him. so i don't know what he wants me to do. act like we are dating when we are together or act like hes just another one of my guy friends! i don't understand what he wants. I mean i do but i wish he would have thought about this a little sooner. O and he still wants me to go to chi-town for his 21st with his WHOLE family! so does that make me some one that he is dating, or just another one of his friends!
god i am soo confused right now. O and im broke. go figure!