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i've found that i've changed since high school, but i don't particulary know how.
i think i've become more confident and more okay with my independence. if people don't want to hang out with me, for the most part, i'm okay with that. in high school i wasn't.
i've also learned that i don't need to deal with people's bullshit. i don't need to make others happier than i am because these days i do things for me.
i've also become a lot more upfront and confrontational than i ever was. i have somehow found the confidence to actually say what i'm feeling to a boy, as well as just friends in general when things aren't going smoothly. i like this new part about me. i think i've been through enough rejections that i can deal with this kind of stuff, or i've just become better at hiding the fact that these things bother me.
i've learned what i really look for in a good group of friends. friends that understand busy schedules and understand you don't necessarily have time to hang out, but when you are free, they enjoy the time with you that much more. this is why i love theatre people so much. within the last week and a half i've spent 2 nights on my floor just hanging out..every other night i've either slept somewhere else or come back way after everyone has gone to sleep. it's sad in a way because i miss them but they don't seem to miss me, so i have others to turn to.
ACT holiday party was realllly fun times on friday. had some good conversations and good times with some awesome people. i'm really gonna miss them over break.
christmas carol 2.0 is tonight - it's a version of a christmas carol, re-written in the future in space. it sounds ridiculous but i enjoy it very much and i'm glad i decided to do it.
well. christmas shopping begins, and i am stuck in the rush of what to get my parents for christmas. if you have ideas as to what i should get for my dad, suggstions are greatly appreciated.
i think i've become more confident and more okay with my independence. if people don't want to hang out with me, for the most part, i'm okay with that. in high school i wasn't.
i've also learned that i don't need to deal with people's bullshit. i don't need to make others happier than i am because these days i do things for me.
i've also become a lot more upfront and confrontational than i ever was. i have somehow found the confidence to actually say what i'm feeling to a boy, as well as just friends in general when things aren't going smoothly. i like this new part about me. i think i've been through enough rejections that i can deal with this kind of stuff, or i've just become better at hiding the fact that these things bother me.
i've learned what i really look for in a good group of friends. friends that understand busy schedules and understand you don't necessarily have time to hang out, but when you are free, they enjoy the time with you that much more. this is why i love theatre people so much. within the last week and a half i've spent 2 nights on my floor just hanging out..every other night i've either slept somewhere else or come back way after everyone has gone to sleep. it's sad in a way because i miss them but they don't seem to miss me, so i have others to turn to.
ACT holiday party was realllly fun times on friday. had some good conversations and good times with some awesome people. i'm really gonna miss them over break.
christmas carol 2.0 is tonight - it's a version of a christmas carol, re-written in the future in space. it sounds ridiculous but i enjoy it very much and i'm glad i decided to do it.
well. christmas shopping begins, and i am stuck in the rush of what to get my parents for christmas. if you have ideas as to what i should get for my dad, suggstions are greatly appreciated.