Alone
So lately I feel like I am completly alone in this world. I go to work all day full time and work my ass off to try and make things better for me and bobby. We have to get a car and find an appartment really soon, but it seems the harder I try, the worse the situation gets. And the worse the situation gets, the more alone I feel. Its wierd how you can spend ten minutes or 10 hours with someone and still feel empty scared and alone in life. I dont know what to do anymore, I just cant kick this feeling of failier and emptyness at all. Things just seem to keep getting worse. My relationship with Bobby doesnt seem to be getting any better. I feel like I work, and work, and work, and he does nothing but hang out with people. So while I'm at work, busy as hell, he is out having fun. I understand that he doesnt want to be at home b/c there is nothing to do, and b/c him and my parents arent getting along, and I also understand that he is waiting on a start date to go to work. But at the same time, if I were in his shoes I would atleast go find a BS job for a while until I started my other job. I donno, things just arent getting any better!
lena
lena