why....
I feel like I've lost a part of me...
Im not sure if its a good thing that Ive lost or if its bad. I understand that losing a part of yourself is never a good thing but sometimes its a way to make yourself better and a way to grow....
My heart hurts... I feel like I cant breath, it beats fast everytime I think about you.....
I just dont know if I can do this again... the third time? Will I decide again that I cant do it and break your heart again... for the 3rd time? I cant do that... but I cant sit back and watch you live your life without me...
And then theres this other part of me that see's something else and sees how good it could be. See's the happy side to it and see's the future, I think, and see's it happy.
Then there's the part where you lose a friend and have no idea why. I wish I hadnt but I cant go crawling back... maybe if I had done something wrong I would but I didnt. And instead Im being made out to look like an ass. You take advantage of a me, you get all the bonus's I can give a friend, you walk all over me and keep those benefits. Its like you used me to get something and now that you have it... well fuck! You dont need me anymore... Im sick of talking about you and wishing that whatever happened hadnt happened...
People always think that I have a perfect happy life.
That I have the perfect family, a big house, lots of money, and everything I could want....
Yes, as a child I was spoiled, me and my sister both were.
Yes, I do have a big house that we bought a LONG time ago when things didnt cost so much
No, I do not have the perfect family
No, I do not have even CLOSE to a lot of money
No, I do not get everything that I want...
I wish people would really take the time to know me. I always sit down and get to know people and help them through their problems... but when it comes to me needing someone, no one is there to help me. I sit in my room, or watching TV, or at my computer and keep all my feelings and emotions and thoughts all to myself... and people wonder why Im a bitch. Yes I may care for people but when you cant get your own emotions out they come out on other people.
I just want to see what my life is supposed to be like in 10 years so I can know what to do... I cant take this anymore.
I have never felt this feeling before and I never wish it on anyone... it hurts more than anything and i just want to lock myself in a room and cry....
Im not sure if its a good thing that Ive lost or if its bad. I understand that losing a part of yourself is never a good thing but sometimes its a way to make yourself better and a way to grow....
My heart hurts... I feel like I cant breath, it beats fast everytime I think about you.....
I just dont know if I can do this again... the third time? Will I decide again that I cant do it and break your heart again... for the 3rd time? I cant do that... but I cant sit back and watch you live your life without me...
And then theres this other part of me that see's something else and sees how good it could be. See's the happy side to it and see's the future, I think, and see's it happy.
Then there's the part where you lose a friend and have no idea why. I wish I hadnt but I cant go crawling back... maybe if I had done something wrong I would but I didnt. And instead Im being made out to look like an ass. You take advantage of a me, you get all the bonus's I can give a friend, you walk all over me and keep those benefits. Its like you used me to get something and now that you have it... well fuck! You dont need me anymore... Im sick of talking about you and wishing that whatever happened hadnt happened...
People always think that I have a perfect happy life.
That I have the perfect family, a big house, lots of money, and everything I could want....
Yes, as a child I was spoiled, me and my sister both were.
Yes, I do have a big house that we bought a LONG time ago when things didnt cost so much
No, I do not have the perfect family
No, I do not have even CLOSE to a lot of money
No, I do not get everything that I want...
I wish people would really take the time to know me. I always sit down and get to know people and help them through their problems... but when it comes to me needing someone, no one is there to help me. I sit in my room, or watching TV, or at my computer and keep all my feelings and emotions and thoughts all to myself... and people wonder why Im a bitch. Yes I may care for people but when you cant get your own emotions out they come out on other people.
I just want to see what my life is supposed to be like in 10 years so I can know what to do... I cant take this anymore.
I have never felt this feeling before and I never wish it on anyone... it hurts more than anything and i just want to lock myself in a room and cry....