...Sigh...
So my birthday freaking rocked. It was great!!! Thank you to all my friends. You guys are awesome. You are people that make my life meaningful.
Ya know I thought I was over it. Why are things I hang on to? If its not one thing then its something. I don't get it. I know what I want. And I know I cant have it so why don't I just get over it? I'm happy with what I have. I really am. I'm thankful for everything God has given me. Its just...I want him...I just don't know who him is. I wish I did. What if he's standing in front of me and I just don't realize it? What if he's one of those that keeps passing me by?
I don't want to be used anymore. I know I'm better than that. So why do I let it keep happening? Maybe its because I think well if i just this chance with him maybe he'll see what I see - that its right - that we should be together. But he never does. So why do I keep trying? It's like I can't give up. That's suppose to be a good trait and right now its not. It's like I want it to be over and its not. Somebody please just make it end!
Ya know I thought I was over it. Why are things I hang on to? If its not one thing then its something. I don't get it. I know what I want. And I know I cant have it so why don't I just get over it? I'm happy with what I have. I really am. I'm thankful for everything God has given me. Its just...I want him...I just don't know who him is. I wish I did. What if he's standing in front of me and I just don't realize it? What if he's one of those that keeps passing me by?
I don't want to be used anymore. I know I'm better than that. So why do I let it keep happening? Maybe its because I think well if i just this chance with him maybe he'll see what I see - that its right - that we should be together. But he never does. So why do I keep trying? It's like I can't give up. That's suppose to be a good trait and right now its not. It's like I want it to be over and its not. Somebody please just make it end!