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"it hurts to want everything
and nothing at the same time
i want whats yours and i want whats mine
i want you but i'm not giving in this time"
I cant give in because if i do thats just giving into something i know will never be. No matter how much I want it - you'll never want it. Funny thing is - whenever all this first started it seemed like you were the one chasing me and I was the one settling for you. But now the tables have turned. But im not chasing you. I cant. I have something worth keeping. Something thats not worth throwing away because I just cant get my thoughts straight. Sad thing is, I see myself in you. I will always love you as you will always love her. But I dont give a shit anymore either. Its not worth getting upset over. I have you as a friend. And I guess thats all I could ask for. I mean if I was really suppose to be with you, I would be in your arms. But Im not. Im not sure I will ever be again. Cause Im in his arms now. And he holds me like Im his everything. He looks at me as if Im all he sees, all he wants to be with. Like you never did. I might never get over the fact that I loved you with everything I had and you didnt love me back. Because its hard to get over something that was never really there. But Im through with getting upset about it. Im through thinkin maybe theres still a chance. Because I want what Ive got. And I dont want to give it up. I hope that one day you find that girl thats made just for you. Any girl would be lucky to have you. As for me, I be here. Hopefully standing by you, helping you make it through life. Because I'll always be here to catch you when you fall. To be the someone thats there when no one else is. And I hope there will be someone by my side. Maybe, if Im lucky it will be the same guy Im with now. Because he's something special. And Im ready to have someone love me as much as I love them.