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[shorttheatrekid]

So... I have a new crush in my life he has actually gotten me over Daniel. I mean who would have thought I would have ever gotten over him? Well, anyways this boy is great and nice and funny and makes me life and giggly and just like the way I use to be before I hit this huge depression in my life. It's like the first time in a long time the clouds have cleared and I am not homesick and I don't want to quit my job I look forward to having someone to hang out with when I get home from work. We go to the beach and we just talk and talk and talk about theatre and life and all these awsome things.... the only draw back is I think he likes me and Raymond even saw what he thought was an attraction but he has a girlfriend and that makes it so difficult not to just be like hey I just wanna kiss you. I mean he knows I like him and he never admitted nor did he deny that he was attracted to me, so therefore the only way to tell is how we interact with each other. Raymond told me today when we were getting ice and "The Crush" saw me and I spotted him it was like his whole entire world came to life. He just lit up and was waving and smiling hardcore so I blew him a kiss. Then Raymond was talking to him and the whole time Crush was looking at me. So, Raymond believes there is more than meets the eye. So, as I sit in his apartment every night and hang out with him till we leave to go to the beach I just look at him smile and talk about everything we can. He is a buddist and gave me a book to read it's actually really good. As most of you know I have been soul searching for awhile and I think I may have found something. I mean I believe in fate and everything happens for a reason and this reason has to be for something totally awesome whether it turns romantic or not, he is teaching me a lot about life and he is just the most amazing and awesome guy in the world. I know most of you are oh danielle is just being her little girl self, but if I have ever really talked to you you know my struggles with getting over Daniel and how everytime I have messed around with another boy I always feel some kind of guilt well not with him, when I am with him Daniel isn't even on my mind infact I pretty much told him the other day that I don't want anything to do with him because I am sick and tired of playing the will we won't we game. Plus, I see now that he is liar and he has hurt me a lot in the past and it will take some time for those wounds to heal but Crush seems to help me forget that those wounds were even there and that's absolutely amazing. I don't know why I just spilt my heart out like that but I have had to tell someone for the longest time and it seems to me that no one understands me than those who read my blog. I love you Nia, Drew, Brandi thank you for always being there for me. I am so giddy right now its not even funny I just thought about how me and him going to the beach tonight and I got butterflies in my stomach just like I did when we both spotted each other from afar last night. Speaking of last night Charles tried to give me a hickey.... I had to literally push him off me it was kinda scary I ran back to crush's apartment and was like ok this is going to sound wierd but is there a hickey on my neck he tilted his head and looked at me then tilted my neck and took an extra long look at my neck before saying no, you're safe.... for now. I blushed hard core. Oh, hey p.s. we have lizards and snakes slithering about outside of the apartment complex so when y'all come to visit becarful they are just garden snakes but still they are scary as hell. well anyways gotta go hugs and kisses and peace out mother fuckers!

Love ya!

Danielle