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*-*- Its really hard to sit down and think about everything that went on in the past few years without getting pissed... Things got really complicated at one point and then I thought they were getting better but they never were. I thought while living out of my house I had someone to trust....someone to confide in when the whole time I was calling the wrong person the liar. I NEVER believed someone when they came to me and told me that "so and so tells me everything you said and they send me conversations"... I NEVER believed it in the world...till the day the person proved to me that they were telling me the truth...why didn't I see all this from before... Why? Its funny how someone acted like such a big shot one night and told me "I'm going to go get here and when she gets here let her have it"... Ha ha YET on the way to the house.... the person was told "Tina's at the house just ignore her and let whatever she says bypass... HOW can someone be so 2 faced? But that's ok... its all good. I guess ALL secretes went out. How do you think I knew WHEN to say GOODBYE to a certain someone... 3 mystery phone calls... YES I was one of them I'm glad I did it too. Its time to get everything out...Why now people ask... Well lets see. I'm getting it all out now because I'm sick and tired of things going on. I learned the hard way that way and now I'm learning the hard way with a lot of other things going on in my life right now. -*-*
*-*- Everything with Victoria went down hill. I was there for that little girl but I couldn't Handel that anymore. She got mad when I stopped talking to her and got herself into more trouble but things had to be let go. She was 14 years old and into way to much stuff for me to Handel. I couldn't deal with that anymore. I couldn't watch ANOTHER child I care for get into trouble or hurt. But this child was doing it all on her own she had no help from anyone. For those of you who ran your mouth and told me I was horrible for walking away from her and that's how she got so bad.... it wasn't me. I don't care anymore your comments don't bother me. She decided that's the life she wanted to lead and it was a life that I didn't want to be involved in so FUCK you ALL. -*-*
*-*-As for Tasha, her and I hang out here and there. But again that's no ones business. she had her differences with Jay and it just wasn't going so good with that. Now her and I are fine. She's there for me and she's really good to the little one. -*-*
*-*-As for Jay, not that its anyone's business but I heard the rumors about that so I decided I was going to take it into my own hands to explain. Jay didn't "leave" me... Him and I both decided that things weren't going good at all. We never saw each other because when he was coming home from work I was going on and vise versa. SO you can all keep running your mouths about that one too.-*-*
*-*-As for Brian, he's NONE of ANYONES concern. Things are going FINE between us and I intend to keep it that way. He gets along with all my friends and he's just awesome. I love him more than anything. -*-*
*-*-YES I still hang with Michelle. She was the ONLY one who helped me get through all the pranks and everything else from the past years. I met Michelle though the family and she continued to help me when I needed the help to be able to pull off what I did. Again its no ones business. -*-*
*-*-YES you ALL have seen me with Pam Daniel, she works at the same hospital as me and we bump into each other here and there and YES I got things cleared with her. Just thought I would clear that up for all of those who like to run their mouths. As for her sons, YES we have talked here and there but that again has NOTHING to do with anyone else...NO ONE puts YOU as the center of their world anymore. So get over yourself. -*-*
*-*-On another note. Most of you know that Liz isn't doing good at all. Everyone's talking about her not making it and all this other bullshit. That's hard for everyone in this family because we all love Debbie. Liz is a very lucky girl. She has lived longer than anyone thought she would but she still doesn't deserve to go through what she's going through. Its hard to look at Debbie and not know what to say because I've always been close to my moms friends. I've always been able to talk to Debbie, hug Debbie, just be able to be like "what's up"... Now I feel the tears coming as soon as I see her. I haven't brought myself to be able to go see her yet. I know the machines she's on. I know what they are used for. Uncle Alex was on them all and I'm not sure that I would be able to Handel that. I keep in contact to make sure I know how she's doing. For anyone that knows Debbie, Please keep her in your prayers. And her sweet little girl Liz, That she pulls through and can continue living her life with her family that loves her. Thank You.-*-*
*-*-Like I said things aren't always what they seem. Anyone can put on an act that they are fine, But not everyone can hold that act. I've been spending a lot of time with my Shanny B.... She's someone I know I can always talk too and that I love about her. I can always depend on her. But for now I'm going to bed because Brian wants to check his mail and him and I are leaving early tomorrow morning to get his aunt from Vermont. I hope everyone has a good night.-*-*
*-*-Good night to ALL-*-*