i'm a lucky bitch and i'll be damned if you take that away from me..
Jesus Christ i could write a book.literally me and good ol nnicky sparks have a lot in common. it seems like everytime we get settled and things start to calm down and i realize how much in love i am, someone or something comes and fucks with it.i mean everyone wants the perfect love story and i pretty much got it. you know i gave him away once, and i just got beat up for it in the end. then the second time around was a bit of cabin fever and just icky.kill me first before i let this trivial high school bullshit stop what we have.my mind just started to race and i started shaking and my heart was going a thousand times a minute, and for one second i felt like i did all those other times and i cant have that again. if there is something stable in my life that i need to survive this is it. i mean bessie could die at any second, both my mother and father talk to me when its convienent to them, i lost my kids, i cant worry about something this important, but i guess sometimes you have to. i need to start praying when things are good because i only pray when things are bad and i think God is catching on. we cant have that.i know i have a great guy, and this is not happening again.i dont have it bad at all, im 18, i make like 13dollars an hour, i enjoy wat i do for the most part and im in love. so backoff.im a bitch and i know it and if you ask my friends they know it too.i hate not getting my way, i get mad really easy,i may chew w/ my mouth open,i dont like it when things go not according to plan, i can cry at .0000000001 seconds notice, im gonna be one hell of a nurse, i may even write that book but guess what im not gonna be without andy, thats one thing for sure.