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last night i couldn't stay up so i fell asleep at 12. i don't know what was up, but i couldn't sleep. i kept waking up and not being able to get comfortable. i finally did like after 4 and had the worst dream, again about seabreeze. i think it would be like the 3rd nightmare. i don't know whats wrong, i love my job. whatever though. i got out of bed around 12 and just hung around the house waiting for dad to leave for work. i was suppose to hang out with matt but he never called and i do not want to get in the habit of always calling him. i have a feeling if i keep doing this(waiting for him) i could easily get mad at him like i always do. i feel so sticky right now and its suppose to thunderstorm. i hear it but who knows how long it will last and if work will get cancelled for tonight. as much as i want it to, it won't. i really don't want to work til 11 tonight, i have big feeling i'll be on the eagle which is going to suck. we'll see what happens. i hate getting these bad moods that come out of nowhere. i hate it. maybe i'm mad at myself for some stupid reason. matt tryed to figure out ways to see me while doing his errands like he always has to do he wanted to stop by my house or bring me to work but i said no. i'm kinda selfish or whatever the word is because if i can't see him for more than 3 minutes i don't want to see him at all.